I am at my highest weight ever. It just cant be.. WHY... I fasted for like 4-5 days and didnt LOSE! NOT A SINGLE POUND! MY BODY IS SO FUCKED UP! Am I cursed to remain fat for the rest of my life? Seems no matter how hard I try I CANT lose the weight i gained after recovery (if this is what you call recovery), and i keep gaining more despite my ( Read more... )

So ... Yesterday I decided to end my fast. Not because I was weak and I wanted to eat but because I realised that I am ruining my metabolism. By not eating I train my body to store fat.. so I decided just to restrict. I will do the 2468 thing, maybe without the 8 because I AM REALLY FAT and I will start visiting the gym doing some cardio there. I ( Read more... )

The third day of fasts is when i usually snap and start eating. BUT NOT NOW! I am still going on :) It is easier for me to fast during school because I can avoid the social situations which involve food! Tomorrow i am going out with my friends and I hope I will stay strong and resist all the temptations... + I plan to buy a gym card for the whole ( Read more... )

Day #2 is successful so far :) No food, except a sugarfree gum and I had PE classes so I burned more calories. I am not hungry at all and this makes me veeeeeeery happy :) If I feel the same way throughout the whole week i just might to my first successful fast since last summer!

Hi everyone! Today is the first day of my fast, and its going pretty well so far! I haven't eaten anything and I plan to do some rope jumping or step climbing. I am very happy because the thought of food is far from my mind and I think this journal will do a pretty good job distracting me! 

Ok since I am new here I decided to do a post telling a little more about my "journey" so far.
I am anorexic since I was 15. When I got to my lowest weight (90p) in March 2007 i was hospitalized and they made me gain weight. I managed to lose it during the summer by fasting and dancing regulary. 
Then school started and I realised that I have spent ( Read more... )

Tomorrow Im starting a 10day fast, I havent done a succesful fast since last summer and I am really annoyed, so Im starting fresh tomorrow, no food - only water and I will watch the fat melt away! I will use this journal to track my progress. I dont want to weigh myself because the number would only crash my enthusiasm but i guess i am around 110 ( Read more... )