No matter how much better I think I'm doing, sometimes it's too much and I lose control. I think I hate myself a little more than usual now. Yeah I let my anger get the best of me, and I hit myself. What hurts more is I didn't just do it because I was angry, I did it to manipulate. How reprehensible is that? If I had been alone, I don't think this ( Read more... )

every day I make myself write a little more.

I've been writing on my sotry again, it feels great.

Part of me hopes to never see you again.

where do you find YOUR meaning in life?

SO bittersweet to hold you in my arms~

Through the years.... I'll wait for you.

I was insane during the years I kept this. I mean, I am still insane, but damn. I've melloewed out alot.

"My Final Respite ( Read more... )

4 years since I've last posted here, and I find... I really have no idea what to say anymore, typing it out seems to hard, to admit it exists is to give substance, and I'd rather not.