i didn't mean to piss anybody off
sorry i'm selfish. i really mean that.

i wish you'd work up some courage. you're so pathetic right now. almost as much as me. why does everything have to stop? why can't the good thing stretch out and balance out all this other bullshit? why can't you just hug me and kiss me and tell me that you want to be with me ( Read more... )

my room is so empty and packed up. everything collapses into little squares and just a few things stick out or lean against a wall. i'm going to miss this room and this house and these people. no matter how much i also don't, i definetely also will. hah ( Read more... )

i hope i'm being careful. sometimes i just can't tell.

lw

when i think about you it stings. i wish you knew how much i think of you and wonder if something's gone wrong. makes me feel like i'm going crazy a little.

i just want you. and for this to work.
lw

great weather for apartment scouting. i'm only being slightly sarcastic, the fluffy snow in my hair and on my coat was very pretty. like when snow looks like it's falling in huge columns and spirals. i found some ok places. one bedrooms are a stupid waste of money though. i'm really frustrated at not having a roomate for sure. sigh. i'm looking at ( Read more... )

richie's memorial service yesterday was weird. i mean, not that weird i guess it's what i expected. i just think i never expect to get upset like i do. there's something strange about sharing grief with other people. it makes me happy to hug richie's parents and just know that everyone still feels something very strong about richie like he's still ( Read more... )

i'm building memories on things we have not said

just start the chase i'll let you win

i wish flannery was here more often. this summer i shall seek her company, i really enjoy her perspective. i remember things she says a lot. that kind of thing ( Read more... )

i feel all smiley, i hope i don't look back and feel like an idiot.
i missed you so much.

lw