Coming out of winter. Fingertips numb from loveless bites.

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Cover your old love letters with the river’s clay. Lie down in the rushes. Cross out your heart with stones and sink to the bottom.

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Shower in the dark to feel invisible. Wash yourself away. 

something late.

"you must be somewhere in London, you must be loving your life in the rain."

At times, this has felt like my first winter. Your leaving made the cold sharper. My scarf hangs me in suspense, and there are words like Turkey on my tongue, Armenia, my belly curving and dipping like a corrie in the Scottish highlands. I become obsessed ( Read more... )

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And I'm quite all right, I get by just fine;
I'm not depressed, not most of the time.
It's just the fun stuff is much less fun without you.

He holds the cards in his hands. Jokers and Queens ( Read more... )

I am still dragging behind after returning from holiday. But things are good. Things feel right.


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Listen. Can you heart it? The hum of his mouth far away ( Read more... )

Maybe Very Happy, Jack Gilbert.

After she died he was seized
by a great curiosity about what
it was like for her. Not that he
doubted how much she loved him.
But he knew there must have been
some things she had not liked.
So he went to her closest friend
and asked what she complained of.
"It's all right," he had to keep
saying, "I really won't mind." 
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I know that by now, my skin should know the sting of leaving.
How sudden the weight of my lungs can drop me to the ground,
how quickly a scar tears anew.
But anything I have survived fades away in this. 
What he gave me is gone with him.
I thought that I was old enough now,
to know the markings of a history already written. 
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Lately I just feel too much older.

Tomorrow it's back to university, again. My final semester. I'm terrified. Two crappy theory-ridden courses, the continuation of a group research project, and the research internship I stupidly thought that I could handle.


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