somehow i became everything i looked down on in the world. and suddenly i became what i never even thought possible. and i lost who i was completely. it feels like the last couple months didn't even happen. but, the weird thing is that i feel like this is where i needed to get to in order to end up where i want to be.

it's a christmas miracle.
my room has been cleaned once again.
and it looks fantastic if i do say so myself.
i am so incredibly proud of myself.

and i have a huge bag of clothes i am going to depart with.

and happy birthday to mom.

i like christmas ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel like i'm drowning.

i hate this.
i have a sick feeling in my stomach.
and it's not going away.

and i wish carrie would stop dying.
i miss her.

i have now come to several conclusions after watching the new pride and prejudice movie and after a nice thanksgiving day which are as follows ( Read more... )

rent was amazing, i must say. i really wish i had seen in theatre form. but for my first exposure to it, it was amazing. i loved it. and i loved even more the fact that i didn't have to pay for it. and it was an even more gratifying kind of free than the being paid for kind of free. and it was also nice in spite of especially because the random ( Read more... )

oh man, today was nice. the morning was peaceful, and evening was exhilarating. in between, however, (the play) was crap ( Read more... )

i'm tired of people treating everyone else like crap.

the word for the day is "respect."

i feel so irresponsible.
about everything.
and i hate it.
i absolutely hate it.