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[likepatsycline]

Now that I am thin, they all love me again. It makes me sad for humanity. Mmmmmmario knocks his fingers against my face like a blind person and it makes me sad for my old self; the girl in large jumpers, the invisible girl, the girl who managed to avoid doing all the best, fun things in life. I want to hold her

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[chloebird]

Dear, sweet Anna -- let the old selves be happy for your self now, and you will hold your selves together. It will be squishy. And delightful. There will be words.

[likepatsycline]

Sometimes I don't feel any different - it's as if the world has changed and I have stayed the same. But then I see the way they look at me and I think, this would have been really good five years ago, this would have helped me so much then. (Chloe, thank you - you are one of the warmest people I know.)

[chloebird]

But it's funny -- how the needs that were not met in the past stick with us -- that these looks and lovings you receive now and wanted five years ago will ease something anyway, even if late or strangely garnered.

This is why I am still waiting for the pet dragon that I asked for when I was seven and had buckteeth and needed a better way to deal with Other Children.

[thevelvethorn]

this is pretty and sad. i think i might know how you feel.

[sundayclothes]

i just adore you and it has nothing to do with a lack of something.

[unwinding]

i think i say this every time. you are so beautiful.

[likepatsycline]

:) By the way, I've loved the recent spate of photos from you - it's so interesting to see people for the first time and maybe I have told you this before but, more often than not, they are exactly how I imagined.