im having some self esteem issues. sigh. i shouldnt but i am. i dont feel good about myself. im just like... HOW? i know im prettier. i know im better. but like really? it just makes me feel self conscious.

time to seriously start dieting and working out.
this double chin thing isnt working for me.

im starting to get more comfortable in sb again, but only slightly. not massively ( Read more... )

if i were ever to become a mother i would be deeply scared. not just at this point in my life but at any point in my life. i dont think i could do it and i dont think i will do it. being a mother is not really a possibility because i am afraid i could never be a better mother than my mom was. i dont think i could match how amazing she was and how ( Read more... )

ive come to terms that i have friends who love me, but im a little bit of a loner. i dont have too many close friends and thats okay with me now. i stick with the people who care and the rest its just whatever. i can have more time to study and be a dork and a nerd.

im feeling very emotional lately. a lot of things are getting to me. i dont feel like i have a place in sb, i dont feel like i have enough people to feel myself around, i dont feel good about myself. i feel very alone and i just want to go home. buttt i cant do that. i know i shouldnt do that. i need to find my place, my group of people. lost is a ( Read more... )

finally moved into my new place in SB. im sketched by the bugs. im sketched by the fact that im going to have to do a lot of work around here. im sketched that im living in the garage. sigh. but were SO close to everything. its beautiful. it literally takes me like 5 minutes to get everywhere. i like the location but i HATE the leasing company. as ( Read more... )

im nervous. yet excited. i dont know what to expect. i dont know how im going to cook for myself. i dont know how im going to take care of myself. im nervous. im scared. but i miss those girls and all my friends at sb. i can do it, i know i can. im just nervous. its new. i dont do so well with new. :/ but it'll be fun and good i know it.

im feeling pretty awkward. actually i guess it is more of a creeped out feeling? idk im not comfortable. i dont like it. im pretty sure it has to do with that creeper texting me at 2fucking30 in the morning. not down. did you not get the hint? seriously? GTFO

why were strechmarks invented?
they are evil
i just "grew" about 230942830958 more on the inside of my thighs!
i didnt even gain wait this summer!!
what.
the.
fuck.
sighhh bullshit