Well its amazing how time changes your life...i look back at my last few post.....and i am no longer anywheres near as hurt or angry as i was when i wrote those....lol yikes....i think i wanted to kill him haha.....well hes in afganastan and our wedding is next august......mean time im sooo happy and i love him with all my heart!

well what has heidi been up to lately....shes been doing a lot of stressing!!! last friday...was an okay day and that night mike came over and had dinner and we joked around and played video games. then we talked...we talked about our future and he said that some how he knows how much i love him...i cried some...happy tears....then he went home ( Read more... )

you know i never understood why i had this journal but most of the time when something good happens or something bad happens and i react to it i share all my feelings in here so here we go ( Read more... )

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lets see i got two choices i could try and type somethin that explains the way i feel in which i have been trying to figure out for the past twenty minutes or i can post lyrics that express the way i  feel....third choice i could do both...well ill just go with it and youll find out which one i chose at the end of this entry.

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Well as i was riding home in the car with my mom tonight after spending my money today lol in which i may remind you is the fastest ive ever spent my money after christmas...anyways i was asleep and i heard one of my favorite songs come on and up until today i never knew it but it was also my ( Read more... )

My world revolved around you
Every word was a promise I was hangin' on
Swept up inside a whirlwind
I just couldn't see the end till you were gone
Oh I thought I would fall apart
With shattered dreams and a broken heart
Scramblin' in the dark

Chorus:
How was I to know
That I'd be OK
Thought I'd lose it all when you walked away
How was I to know
I would be this ( Read more... )

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well the last entry was kinda ugly but thats because for about a week my attitude was off.... Im not completely sure that i have my attitude completely back yet but im working on it. To me the past two weeks has seemed that mike and i have been distant from eachother like i know we're still talkin and huging and kissin ( Read more... )

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How are we today...for those who wondered what was wrong with me today...abslutly nothing was...according to some people i looked pissed...others i was too quiet and then my mom says im not myself and havent been for about five days now...truth is im just unhappy with myself and who i am lately...and who ive ( Read more... )

Everywhere I go,
They're starin' at him
Every gurl I know,
She wants to have him.
I guess I oughta be
A jealous gurl.
I look the other way
They're hittin' on him
Every night and day.
They telephone him,
They try and get to him,
But I know they can't.

'Cause he never lets it go to his heart.
he never lets it go that far.
When they start talkin'
he starts walkin'
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Hows it going....as we all know yesterday was the worst day ive had in a long time...i didnt get to see mike...my car is causin more problems for me and my family so that leaves me in hunt of a job...everyone also knows i was supposed to spend time with my baby last night but that didnt happen....we'll leave the reason ( Read more... )