yes yes another love day come and gone...but this one was actually worth a damn! (wow for once!) to MUCH of my surprise Gray Swain..my boy friend actually did something totally off the wall and romantic!!! ( i should of taken pictures or something cuz i seriously doubt it will happen again) he surprised me with a candle lit dinner and half a dozen ( Read more... )

my life is at a stand still until i mail off my fin. aid stuff and do some of my scholarships stuff...oh well every thing will fall into place soon enough...with a little pushing and craming from me. i love my life... im extremly happy .....i have no idea why...i figure out more and more every day why iam so happy to have what have...an awesome boy ( Read more... )

i wish i could be one of those people who could turn lemons into lemonade.... some times i can be when i have some one else positive beside me...surprisingly enough it would be my boy friend...and also my best friend...i guess thats what they ARE there for....im so negative...ive got a 2 page research paper do tomorrow and i havent even started on ( Read more... )

have you ever thought about where you are right now and then try to think about where you will be a year from now?? Thats one question i wish i knew the answer to.....it makes me so sad to think i could be stuck here again next year. either way i should be moved out of aunt cathy's because she dosent want me to live there past that...push comes to ( Read more... )

damn its been a while since i updated this thing...school sux as always but hey i cant complain to much im almost done (thank god!) life is good right now...im just patiently waiting for something to go wrong...Gray and i are getting along fairlywell...sometimes that honesly makes me wonder...i never know with him...he could break up with me ( Read more... )

i come home the day after tomorrow....YAY! would still be sleeping right now but my aunt's house is not far from a train track...my cousins are still sleeping like babies...theyve learned to sleep through it...i went over to my aunt dawn's house yesterday to go get some christmas lights from her my cousin Shane and I ended up staying there for most ( Read more... )

im such a grinch....i hate christmans....i have no idea why though i started hating it about 3 years ago...it just seems to get suckier and suckier each year..but i guess i cant complain to much at least we get out of school for a little while. I brought up the subject yesterday to gray about the whole calling thing...he told me that he was going ( Read more... )

yesterday was a good day....until i had to do my alg. 2 home work i had Gray come over and help me with it ..where he proceeded to tell me that he called up his ex girl friend to wish her a happy birthday then has enough nerve to tell me that she said hello....exscuse my french but FUCH THAT WHORE!!! he knows how much i can not stand just fot the ( Read more... )

i had an fairly good weekend... gray came home early and i hung out with him friday night then Gray Lenna and i all went out to eat at out back. then sunday i baked cookies ALL day ! god my life is so exciting... i dont really care though..im leaving friday to go to florida and go to disney world.. i feel like such a little kid but im kind of ( Read more... )

have you ever woke up in the middle of the night and started thinking?? i dont mean petty shit i mean just like every thing.....it happens to me all the time and i dont exactly think it is healthy.....my cousin asked me yesterday when Gray was coming home i told him he wasnt coming until he ran out of money...he looked at me and said "jolina if i ( Read more... )