I suddenly feel surrounded by death and having to deal with it again after two months of relative aliveness. It's strange that for 20 years of my life death was barely there. Something that I experienced mostly in passing. Affected but not overwhelmed. And now in the last 5 months it has become something tangible and battering. Maybe I'm just ( Read more... )

This is something I wrote a while ago...the transformation of it from words on paper to a digital mishmash of symbols is dedicated to Devika ( Read more... )

I haven't done this in forever. I've been really focused on the blog that is geared toward family and devoted to talking about my adventures. But I feel like I've left a part of myself out. That part of me that wants to explore my thoughts and my emotions and put words to them, even though that is generally difficult. I honestly kind of miss ( Read more... )

desperation and compassion ( Read more... )

I can't decide if I feel like I'm wasting my summer or if it is just right. A little of both, probably, but that's not the point ( Read more... )

so, after that soul eruption that just took place, I started my homework.

I read:
"by itself, advocacy rarely accomplishes anything other than frustration"

I couldn't stop myself from rereading that sentence. Couldn't go on to the clarification. it was too strong.

There are so many things I want to give myself to, to devote my life to ( Read more... )

Wow...it's been a while. I've been really busy lately just living...either that or I've been avoiding thinking too much about how I feel because, honestly, I'm afraid of diving below my recent happiness and finding a terrifed, sad, angry little girl curled up down there. Not that that's necessarily the case, but I don't want to find out ( Read more... )

On the radio, they just played a song that was the Oscar Mayer Weiner song set to the music of the national anthem

HA

I hate when I feel broken hearted for no reason whatsoever ( Read more... )