today was some what bad. All day i wanted to cut, but i knew i couldn't because i would disappointe my friends and i <3 them too much to do that. I went to the Y after practice and tried to teach myself how to swim better. needless to say that didn't go well. Um at crew we did curcits. Mrs. Peters got mad at me cuz i was on the hood of Sunny's Jeep ( Read more... )

seat racing today killed my back...
i found a blade in my pocket today. i flushed it down the toilet.
one week today cut free.

thats about it
<3 me

So that whole tryin to be happy thing isn't quite working ( Read more... )

i just had the best night ever... so why am i so damn depressed ( Read more... )

wow. tonight was awesome. I went to the mall with Francis. We just hung out not doin anything special but it was just so much fun. Um we met up at hot topic. went to hagin daz and FYE. Then we went to Radio Shack and Brokestone (sp) we sat in vibrating chairs. Then we went to Spencers we were in there forever lookin at the sex stuff. lol. we're ( Read more... )

nicole h is mad @ me... great. shes so friggin awesome and she hates me now. i'm such a fuck up. god damn it. i don't deserve friends. its been 5 days since i've cut, my arms are better. i don't want to fuck them up again.

my unsuccessful attempts to keep me UNdepressed... again ignore the logos..

goofy one


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name 3 habits you have:

1. Not talking a lot
2. biting the finger nails
3. making people laugh

name 3 scents you love:

1. Adidas for men
2. Coolwater
3. Most designer mens collogne

name 3 drinks you regularly drink:

1. Water
2. Gatorade/Powerade
3. Soda

name some random facts about yourself:

1. I'm 15
2. I sleep
3. I <3 my guitar, music ( Read more... )

xXecKoOcHikXx (12:49:04 PM): your fat ( Read more... )

Do you know what its like to be so sad all the time? Even when you're smiling you are still so unhappy because someone you care about hates your guts. Its a bitch. I haven't really been able to focus on any thing. School work in particular. I re did my 5K yesterday. I took 22 seconds off of my time from last week. I went from a 22:33.2 to a 22:11.1 ( Read more... )

nicole and rachel want me to dress cute tomorrow.... as in do my hair and wear makeup as well. ugh