Hey everyone... so its been so long since I have written in here. I forgot my password for the longest time. So everything has been hella crazy since the last time that I wrote in here. I am now currently in a relationship with a guy from puerto rico. We've been together for 5 months and I couldnt be any happier. However, his dad got sick and he ( Read more... )

Its that thing that kept me awake, that haunted me, and it put so many lines on my face-that one thing- the thing was how easy it was to not care. How simple it was to just flip a switch, one moment I'm caring and the next I'm not. The thought of it shook me down to my weakest bones. It was so wrong, it was everything horrible about this world, yet ( Read more... )

Whats the use in trying when everything you have attempted goes wrong. I have never been one to give up and I would still like to hold on to that one good quality, but that quality has been overcome with anger, depression, continuous thoughts of is it worth it? Not knowing how to act or deal with anything that is going on. Trying to act like the ( Read more... )

Wishing I was done feeling the feelings I cant get rid of. Dont wishing that I was the one you would want to be with. Done wishing that I would get the things I actually thought I might be able to get. Basically I am done trying, done being the one I cant yet get to. I am depressed and have been its time I quit pretending to be ok. Sorry if I ( Read more... )

Yesterdays events ( Read more... )

So yesterday we played Wells for the volleyball game. We started out pretty good. Things finally seemed to be looking up for our season. We won the first game. Then the next game everything went back down. We ended up losing the next three...giving them the match. Go figure, not another lose. I dont know I am just frustrated. We definatly need to ( Read more... )

So this weekend volleyball went to Battle Mountain. Jv handed it to them won all three games with ease. Then Varsity well hmm...we lost the first two games, won the third and lost the fourth giving the match to Battle Mountain. Damn them, they arent any better than us, we just need to learn to communicate better as a team. Other than that I think ( Read more... )

WHY CANT WE JUST BE TOGETHER?! I MISS HIM SO DAMN MUCH! Anyways so yea I just wanted to update and say I get my stitches out on friday...YAH! But yea I better go, late.

So this weekend has been a blast and a mess all within the same time. Friday I made the mistake of messing around at school after practice by doing the worm and ended up eating it right into the ground and well managed to end up in the e.r. getting stitches. But the good news on that one is I still get to play. YAH! That night I hung out with Shad ( Read more... )

~!* I love him, but I have no idea on what to do. Everyone is telling me to wait and see what happens. But oh my god it is so freakin hard to do that. I am accomplishing it though for now. I dont know how much longer I can take this. I know he likes me, he has told people who have told me. Its just wheither me and him will get back together now or ( Read more... )