I felt a bad day coming on so I tried to cover it up on my face I guess. I have a tendency to do that. It hasn't really been a terrible day but I've just been in a fog for most of it. I'm just thinking of things I shouldn't be thinking about and worrying about things I don't need to worry about and not thinking about the things I should be thinking ( Read more... )

I need to stop reading so damn much...extremely beneficial yet quite depressing.

It's getting worse. Things are fine one minute and the next it's totally out of my control. I really have no earthly idea what to do. I never would have thought that in my life I'd be dealing with something like this. If a year ago even, someone were to come up to me and say "Hey, this time next year, you'll be a mental mess," I would have laughed ( Read more... )

Is it weird that I'm pretty much the only one of my friends that isn't married/engaged/in a live in relationship cause it feels pretty damn awkward.

I am by far the biggest idiot on the face of this useless planet. Yep, that's me ( Read more... )

I surrender, the battle is won. The disease wins.

This is getting ridiculous. I still haven't seen a doctor because I haven't had time recently to call and fight with them about getting me in. My behavior is becoming more and more erratic and frankly it's beginning to scare me. I don't think that's a good sign. I have to keepe it together, if only for a little while longer.

My doctor is sending me to a psychiatrist beause he thinks I'm bipolar.

Haha.

But seriously, I think I am too.

So we broke up. Bigtime ouch but from what I hear I'm coping well. For now I'm just trying not to think about it.

Positive: I'll be back home in Florida sometime next week. We should hang out. :)

I'm exhausted.