I wish I had some idea of where I was headed in life... I just feel so lost right now. I guess most people at this point feel the same way. I've always needed control over at least one thing in my life just to be ok and I don't have control of anything. I don't know who my true friends are which is really difficult. I already have trust issues as ( Read more... )

So I am lying in bed being incredibly lazy like I have been every day for the past week, when I realized that I haven't updated this thing in so long. This is probably because nothing in my life has really changed and it seemed kind of pointless to write the same things over and over again each day. I know that once or twice I did try to update and ( Read more... )

I love the rain. There is just something so relaxing about it. When it rains really hard out here it brings back memories of when I was in Hawaii as a kid and it would just be pouring rain. We would run outside in the middle of the night to go dancing. It would still be warm out and just such an incredible feeling. I miss being in Hawaii so much. I ( Read more... )

So I have finally put myself at ease over the recent things that I have been struggling over. I found something written on a piece of paper which just helped me in some way. On the paper was written: "Sometimes the hardest things to let go of are the things you never really had." For some reason that helped, although now looking at it, I am not ( Read more... )

So I am feeling a little bit inspirational and extremely distraught. I am just so at a loss right now as to what to do with my life. This weekend I spent a lot of time thinking about my life, putting things in order and trying to get a better understanding of where I stand. In doing this, a lot of things became unfortunately clear and I was forced ( Read more... )

So as I continue to count down the days until my grounded life is over I find myself having time to think way more than what is good for me. It's funny...you would think that parents would understand that if they force to much control that they will eventually drive you away. I guess that every situation is different, but for me, I know that once I ( Read more... )

So I guess it is up to the individual person to decide how it is that they wish to live their life, whether they let it pass them by or if they live in the moment. It has to be one of the main things we have control of. WE control our destiny and it is up to us to decide how far it is in life we want to go. If we fail, there is no one else to blame ( Read more... )