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miscarriage
Well I had a miscarriage at 7 weeks, same as my previous miscarriage. This time my body naturally miscarried, instead of finding out at the dr's office there was no heartbeat. On Halloween I started spotting, and I freaked out and went to E.R but they told me that everything looked fine, and there was still a heartbeat, but when I asked the nurse ( Read more... ) -
im pregnant again
Well after reading my last entry, Im feeling a lot better then I did then. Every now and then I get a little in my moods. I read somewhere or maybe I heard it that depression is the result perfection. I think sometimes I can be a little bit of a perfectionist not so much in the way I dress, although I do like to look perfect. Im just idealistic. I ( Read more... ) -
broken
Im starting to think I only write in here when Im sad ( Read more... ) -
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I'm sad. Eric is gone and I feel lonely. I can't wait for him to get back. It's going to be so horrible when he leaves for 10 months in 2015 for deployment to Washington. Luckily he doesn't deploy over seas. I can't imagine how it must feel for women whose husbands go to war. I hope that never happens for Eric. It's hard enough having him gone let ( Read more... ) -
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I love reading old friends entries. It's good to reminisce. I feel as if I'm so disconnected from everyone. I miss the days I had so many friends. I feel like I'm growing up, and so is everybody else. No one really has time anymore. I'm just grateful I have Eric in my life, through our ups and downs we have grown closer then ever. I truly love him ( Read more... ) -
moi petit bealle des bebes
I had my D&C procedure today, after 2 ultrasounds confirmations of non-viable pregnancy. I was pretty terrified to get the surgery. I had a hard time last night deciding on whether it was the right choice for me or now. Prolly the most difficult choice Ive had to make. Theres always that slim hope that you have, and denial that maybe just maybe ( Read more... ) -
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So I found on my appt that my pregnancy might not be viable. It was the hardest thing to hear, I've been so excited about this baby. And to hear the ultra sound tech and dr tell me I'm most likely to miscarry kills me. I been holding on to that little bit of hope I do have that my baby will be fine, but the time is killing me. Every day that goes ( Read more... ) -
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So amazing news I'm pregnant! And I couldn't be more happier on my journey to being a mommy. It's so exciting, it's literally all I think about it. It's nice to have something so wonderful growing inside me, to know my whole life is going to change, and I feel so different. I'm still so early, I honestly don't even know how far along I am until my ( Read more... ) -
Truth be told
Some thoughts before I go to bed.. It's so crazy how people change. But do they? Maybe people don't change maybe we just think they change in reality we just never knew who they really were. We see what we want to see, and who really wants to see the bad. If we open our eyes instead of closing them in fear of disappointment, well see people for who ( Read more... ) -
absence is to love as wind is to fire, extinguising the weak enflaming the great
So I'm going to attempt to write in here more. Since I deleted my fb, so might as well. So everything is going good! Me and Eric have been talking lately. He's been making changes, and trying to prove to me he wants to be with me. I do love him. Hes a great guy, despite his stubborn ways and pride that always gets the best of him. This time apart ( Read more... )