I can't believe how alone I feel. I can't believe I let this go this far. I thought it was just a cute little habit that the girls I thought were beautiful had, to keep their weight down, and ahead of the rest. Im reading chris duncans journal and I understand how he felt now. I want to do what he did too. I want this cycle to just end. I don't ( Read more... )

I woke up at five am and took a bus into town to sign up for dance class, because I stumbled across a flyer the other day and it made my heart dance so I figured my feet should follow. But I don't want anybody to know because I don't want them to think that I'm actually accomplishing something. Later on in the day I got in a fight with my dad ( Read more... )

why do I feel like I'm about to binge-eat? Let me analyze myself for a moment here ( Read more... )

One slimfast: 170 cals
One piece of lasagna:290 cals.
Water and Green tea.

I've been taking so many pills, to keep the overwhelming tide of anxiety and the slow descending desperation at bay. People take pills all around me. We live in one big pill farm, a wasteland of the human emotions. Don't even bother to try and sort out your issue's, just wake up and take a xanax and forget about it. Thats what I do best. Avoid ( Read more... )

Kyoko Fukada is the cutest japanese girl I've ever seen in my life, and Kamikaze girls is the cutest japanese movie I've ever seen in my entire life. I have a shitty fever, so I've just been laying around and I've gained ten whole pounds, how exhillirating it is to have c's now...I need a break.

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Sickness was fixing me some.

Coughed up my heart in the last stall

and now that the damage is done.

I'll never miss it at all.

I think I have lost weight.

Here are some pics.

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