I have been exhausted lately, with shaky quaky limbs and a little bit of a penchant for crying. It is just another case of 'nothing is actually wrong, I just cant keep up with everything', and yet i do keep up with it all. Too much busy turns into crazy feelings of self loathing, but luckily I can de-tangle from it and see that everything will be ( Read more... )

I had one of the most satisfying and balanced weekends I have had in months. Its getting towards the end of the school year, and I see the conclusion of my coursework in sight, its a big relief. I started back at my old job which was positive, I rested and took care of myself, I wrote a lot on my gigantic essay and had some breakthroughs, my sweet ( Read more... )

I am not sure why the moment of going to sleep feels so hard, but it always does, especially when I am super busy. I want to savor down time moments cozy by myself, I want it to last longer. I know my bad patterns of sleep deprivation well, but its sort of fun in a sick way to keep going with it, even though I know I should do better. But there is ( Read more... )

I really love my roommates, and I love the house where I live, but I am SOOOO excited not to have roommates (other than my sweetie, which is sort of not a technical roommate) very shortly. Other people's messiness and money problems totally wear on me.

Today.... I got my old job back at the bakery for the 2 months I need a job in the summer before going on tour/going to france. I walked around in golden sunlight. I participated in an amazing lady's clothing swap at my house (getting new free clothes! getting rid of clothes i dont want!). Then I went to an amazing zine release where I helped out ( Read more... )

My body is quite sore from moving it in new (old) ways, just starting to regularly exercise again. Feeling healthier goals this time around-- I just want more energy, less stress, to feel shiny, and not worry about my body image if I can help it, just try to go and move and function and feel good. I want to be able to swim across the lake in the ( Read more... )

Busy days, sleepy nights, time speeding up. Working on slowing it down. Lots of 16c. and 17thc. lit followed by movies that "straddle" the divide between romantic comedy and chick flick. engaging in the constant effort of not getting stressed out but of course its really hard.

So many changes, and so many changes in plans ( Read more... )

 I hate mean, antagonistic correspondence, especially from people I used to be close with. Getting mean emails back in response to friendly ones makes me feel really upset- it actually makes me cry. Sometimes I forget how a certain person's words can make you feel, I hope time will fix it and when it doesn't, its surprising ( Read more... )

Life is very good, so full of school work in a class I love, tutor time for an easy job I like, playing shows with a band I love to sing in, and lots of nice friends and travel and things. But not enough sleep, I am super fucking tired, and I CANNOT SEEM to sleep more than like... 5 hours in one night for several weeks. I feel like a cheerful ( Read more... )