"Tears are the words the heart can't say." (Only this time, they're of disappointment.) I've learned not to like the hour before I fall asleep. Most of the time i'm doing great. I live my life the best I can and enjoy doing it. I have friends who support me and love to do things with me, simply because we all enjoy eachother's company. Then, the ( Read more... )

I have a little spare time here at work so I thought i'd do an update for once. I know it's been forever since I did my last one. Well, for starters, I now work at Harley Davidson of Dallas in Allen instead of at Victoria's Secret. (big change I know) I like it though. I loved Victoria's but they just couldn't give me the hours I needed and a girl ( Read more... )

Alrighty then, started summer school this past monday. *is so overjoyed* In fact, I already have a paper due here in a couple of hours. Something about things that have helped shape who I am or some such nonsense.  I did get to see Superman Returns last Sat. with josh for our anniversary. Pretty good stuff.  The guy did a good job filling ( Read more... )

Red penetrating pain progressive and deep

chest and stomach tightening beyond belief

heart pounding and laboring for each beat it makes

overloaded with emotions the mind slowly breaks

the knowledge of what’s to come firmly set in your head

from all the times before that were spent tightly curled in bed

sharp shards pierce your skull as the pain ( Read more... )

Ok, I decided I should update since I haven't done an entry in a while, so here goes.  *Mind goes blank*   Mmmm, well my cousin Hannah flew into town last week and is staying with us for a while. She's a lot of fun, but i forgot just how much energy one has at 13. (doesn't help that she looks like she's 16) Anyways, I worked in the morning at V. S ( Read more... )

Ok, I know that I haven't written on here in a while, but this is the first time in a while i've felt like it and I finally have the time. Sorry it took so long though guys. Let's see, I finally moved back into mom's place last thursday (I was living with beth for a while). Living with the Martine's was a nice break, but it wasn't what I think i ( Read more... )

Well, let's see, last time I wrote I was really depressing so let's see if I can't come up with some better real-life material this time.  First off, I am still fighting my tendancies of eating and then overeating but things are definately much better now.  Mom and I are still fighting a lot off and on, but that too has gotten a little better. It's ( Read more... )

RECAP: Super-stressed at home, problems with friends, having trouble with migraines still, now battling anorexia again, and lost my job today because i'm sick too much. So, basically that all made me feel like shit. *sigh* The only thing that hasn't been giving me trouble is me and Josh; amen for that. 

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Up, Down, Up, Down, that's all my mood ever seems to be anymore. However, at least there are more ups lately.  Although, I really wish everything wasn't so complicated. It's harder and harder to keep everyone's feelings from getting hurt, the busier I get and the greater my highs are, over my lows.  Got some visiting done though, wrote Kendrick, ( Read more... )