i'm calm, i'm rational.... i'm not completely unpsycho, but i'm getting there. I seriously don't know what happened.... Ryan and I got the house in Hawaii..and then... i just freaked. It's like being claustrophobic, but not in that sense... i better look up the word for that freaking out phase.
It's time to tell you whats really wrong with me. I've stopped eating. Stopped worrying about wether or not I'm hurting myself. i fequently find myself sitting on the white sand just watching the waves. I've been trying to figure out who Heather Gosling really is. Notice how I put Gosling and not Chasez? I'll always be a chasez thats a duh, but
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I've been neglecting my journal. I've been really busy with planning the wedding and such. I've been a home body lately, I'm sorry. Just stayin with my baby Ry, talkin to Brit, spending time with Joshy and Jenny
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I hate the word promise, and I hope to never hear it again. I feel like it's a word that travels along with it's good friend broken. That pushed me over the edge and now I don't need your help anymore. I'm proud of you for everything you do, and I was fine before that word was thrown in. I can handle my life without you now
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Hi what? Durr theres something I need to say. *coughs*
Durr. Ryan is my Cheesecake. I love Ry. I love everything about him and if my space key would work properly then I would tell you all of my reasons. But just know that I love Ryan and he is mine. kthnxbai.