happy goes to hell

[lilcheer]

why is it that when i am truly happy for the first time in a whole fucking year it has to leave me out in the dark. then i hear of somone allover him and how "he likes her, but he is still in love with me" god it's shit like this that makes me wonder why i didn't, i mean i had the oportunity, and i let it go. i could have put an end to all this

Comments

[blacklabgirl34]

hey shell,

i guess its kind of my fault i ruin your happiness all the time. if i would keep my fat mouth shut and not say anything, this wouldnt happen. im sorry. i can still talk to him for you. seein as its always me who makes you like this. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry.

i guess, i dont know why i tell you it all all the time. i dont know. my nights been hell too.

i ♥ u, though, just remember that.

♥Jen♥

[lilcheer]

no Jenny it's not you at all it's someone else someone who reads this so i wont say what i think. but it sure as hell isn't you ok??? i <3 you and this has nothing to do with what we talk about (like whats on your mind)... i gotta go now, but i want to talk to you...

[blacklabgirl34]

ok, it just seemed like everything i told you about came back at me. i dont know. whenever you need to talk, im open hun, you know that!!

♥Jen

Advice

[stetch_the_cat]

sometimes it's ok to let go. it's hard at first, but it's nessisary. If you want to get back to the healthy 'shell we all know. You just keep your head held high and don't let yourself think that you need someone to hold you always. I know- it's crazy to hurt that bad. Think of it as a Power surge, you have nothing in your way, no stupid boy to get in the way of your dreams. Dream on, be independent, keep caring and loving, find yourself. You can do it. Don't listen to the rumors listen to your heart.
Love you lots
~stetch