fuck the memories. i dont even want the good ones anymore.
everything in my life, i lost.
my job, my boyfriend, my new apartment, my pets, my health.
grrrr

new journal. im about to go make one and link it to this one. i cant stand looking at the old memories.

yeah. so i went to urgent care. my aunt took me.
blood pressure on a NORMAL chelsea - 117/90
blood pressure today - 90/63.
weight of a NORMAL chelsea - 131
weigh ttoday - 119

hooked up to an IV.
urine test.
blood work.
we'll find out more tomorrow.

good moods tho, right? :) smiles are free.

somethings going on with me.

me and my aunt spent the day together ( Read more... )

so far, next to none of my friends have been around.
since i've ODed.
since i've been in the crisis center.
lord knows where i'll be today so i can be forcefed again
maybe the ER

and yet every single night, i go to sleep without getting one email, one visitor besides my aunt and mom.

ouch.

i am absolutely.
bliiiiiinded by the light.

dss went ok. im too weak and impotent to take off my wristband.
so i think i'll wear it forever. and ever. and ever.

even when im homeless. forever.

goodnightagainmascarastainedpillow.

that night. was so good ( Read more... )

tonight was a good night ( Read more... )

its weird i've never been thrown in such a 50/50 chance before from one extreme to the next ( Read more... )

goodbye livejournal.
if you wanna know about my life, be a true friend and pick kup the phone.

ps - never overdose.
charcoat is sick.