I have been thinking since the other day when u informed how close ur moving date is...i want u to be happy and have the best. I know I stress alot about us and the future, but as i have been sorting through my thoughts i have realized you are still in my life and it has been a rough 4 yrs. You are in my life for a reason...All the stress I put on ( Read more... )

My life is unbelievable right now....can't stand living in this place and cant get out fast enough. One person who i thought was close to me isnt anymore. Worse feeling in the entire world; to be in the lime light of competition. never had that before. ur side kick having to be one up on you and pushing themselves on your friends. it blows my mind ( Read more... )

i don't even know what to say...why? i thought there was something but then when i saw you walk through the door tonight i knew it was nothing...i was curious and interest to see what was going to become of us. through ut the night there was no talking then when we were forced to talk we had nothing to say but me saying o so now you can tak to me. ( Read more... )

how do you know which color underwear to put on everyday or how to do your hair when you look in the mirror every morning? i never understand the choices i make until later on down the road. we live we learn but when do we learn the truth behind all? it can't always be after we have made the mistake...there has to be away to figure it all out ( Read more... )

why...why...why ( Read more... )

throwing in the towel, can't fix it and never will ( Read more... )

there comes a time in everyones life that they feel unstable and need to change the norm to feel a sense of comfort. I have been through a very rough patch these past few weeks and nothing is getting better. A piece of me is gone and it hurts bad. I am confused about my life and my choices. But i am taking it day by day sometimes when it is really ( Read more... )

I walked in my room tonight and turned on my light and sitting on the lamp shade was a lady bug. they say lady bugs bring luck...i have been finding them in my room all summer. All summer I have been recieving luck; seizure free, driving, owning a car, making money and focused. I have a big weight on my shoulders and it starts next week. I do reach ( Read more... )

its been a crazy summer...non stop choas to the point i forgot who i was. The other day i realized that i reached my goals i set for myself about a year ago...license, job, 21 and school. I did it and i can not complain about my life right now...i am so proud of myself it is unbelievable. Work is kicking me in the ass right now, mentally and ( Read more... )

Does time always have to run out? What is suppose to happen once it does? Is it completely over? I am not prepared for the timer to ding nor prepared to say goodbye for good. I have never lost someone so close before. There has been many miles between us for awhile and not seeing your face or hearing your voice everyday. How could i miss you then? ( Read more... )