Forget the last post I was just being….weird…I mean yeah it was true but UGH WHATEVER!

I had the best fucking weekend!!!! I got to go to the feathernest because my bf loves me!!! …well that and we both live at home so sex is kinda…yeeeeeah…so we went to Egypt lol. Well we really wanted the ice cave cause…ICE CAVE but it was taken since we decided to ( Read more... )

This will be kinda cryptic cause…well I shouldn’t even make it public.

Just. Why cant. every time I think of you.

I am sooooo fucking happy with Patrick so it isn’t that and I would never cheat *sigh* again. Still it nags at me so badly. I hate myself for it every time I think about it.

I know I should cut ya out completely. I just cant do that. So ( Read more... )

this guy.....i cant even lol.

i guess it's suuuper fuckin good that after 3-4ish months i'm still this way about him. that should be a pretty good sign...ANYHOW.

i finally did cry in front of him. kinda pissed i let myself get so emotional over what it was. when i woke up today a bill collector called me twice in a row. WTF?! like he called, left a ( Read more... )

kinda scared.

tomorrow patricks mom is comin over for dinner. i know i like her and she likes me but will my mom like her??? i dunno. i guess cause i like patrick so much i just want them to really get along well. i shouldnt worry at all because the 2 are like the same damn person but still. i never had a formal meeting of the parents type thing so ( Read more... )

well i guess i'll report on my SUPER GREAT TIME

i fuckin love ren faire lol. i got to wear a cute lil dress, i had ppl i dont know call me pretty <3. it was just kick ass !! i loved every damn second even when joe kidnapped me lol. my feet feel like shit today cause i got a big ass blister on my toe but it was totes worth it.

not really too much to ( Read more... )

forget i have a bf. cause this has nothing to do with him lol. it's important i say that and you will see why very soon.

i went to the bank today almost with tears in my eyes. why? i was going to cash in my bonds. now before i go into that know i couldnt even do it because i dont have a vaild fucking id. anyhow. i was almost crying because those ( Read more... )

..i just had to post again. what just happened just...damn.

okay. so i was lookin up cupcakes pics and his mom came in the room and we ended up talking for like an hour. this woman. i cant put into words. i really cant she is the most wonderful person i've ever met. best way i can exsplain is i have my aunt mill back. i know that means nothing to ( Read more... )

well not really.

his mom is here in the other room but he's at school. he only has to go for an hour but it takes him an hour to get there and an hour back so i need to find somthing to do for 3 hours till he comes home. i could have gone home and i could have gone with him and just like chill in the mall an hour or sit in his car but NO i wanna be ( Read more... )

all i do is kill time untill i get to go over patricks...then i just kill time there....this is my life.

i mean dont get me wrong i like being over there but i dont really DO anything. just kinda hit me right now. wtf am i doing with my life? lol not in a OMFG CUT CUT CUT CUT way more like a huh? moment. i mean i kinda like my life. at least mostly ( Read more... )

there are alot of things i need to do very soon. most i cant do much about right now. i have to wait to try and see if i can still have this job. untill i get that job i dont have any money. so pretty much the only thing i can do this moment is restart project girl...wtf is that?

just me trying to be girly. i dont have any money to get girl ( Read more... )