But sometimes I feel that way. I know something is wrong with my body, I just know.  I have all the symptoms, I have a family history which I know doesn't guarantee anything, but as a sibling, it means my chances are 2.7% greater - and that's not nothing.

Every time something is wrong, something feels off, I do what we're not supposed to do and I ( Read more... )

Whenever I'm stressed, overwhelmed, sad, etc, I think to myself "I want to go home".  Regardless of the fact that 99% of the time I think this to myself, I am home. I've always just figured that it's my minds way of telling me I want to go to a more simple time. Where or when that is, I'm not sure.

I've never said this out loud, never voiced it ( Read more... )

I've been tired for years, and I swear this can't be normal.  I fully understand and accept that with age, things change. I'm tired all the time, I have headaches all the time, my memory sucks to the point I forget words.... (cut to yesterday, trying to remember the word for rug, I had to draw a square with my hands and point at the thing, and ( Read more... )

When you get to work, you're told to "leave your problems at the door" - or at least this is what I was always told whenever starting a new job.

Leave your home life at home, and focus on work.

In looking after our mental health, we're told to "leave work at work". Don't stress about your job after hours, it only takes away from your time at home ( Read more... )

I've had every intention of posting for awhile, but time somehow always seems to just get away from me.

I wanted to document my Saxenda journey - why not?  Felt like I was finally doing something to take control over my life, it felt good to get started and I was super optimistic about what was to come.

That was 5 months ago.  What has come? A ( Read more... )

40 has come, 40 has gone. 40 + 9 days today!  And I've survived with interesting clarity.

D Day (ie, my birthday) was a day to remember.  I was home, down and out with  back pain that had a few days earlier landed me in the hospital for a 3 day stay.   It was a humbling experience. Unable to sit, stand, walk or move without experiencing ( Read more... )

The hardest part of losing someone suddenly (in this case, our brand new puppy) is playing the "what-if" game.

Knowing that if I had just made a few different choices that day, he may still be with us.

If I had left him in the house rather than bringing him outside while the kids were running around, he'd still be alive.

If I had made sure he ( Read more... )

Remember that episode of Big Bang when Sheldon is trying to figure out how to make new friends? He goes to the library and gets the book "Stu the Cockatoo is New at the Zoo".

Unfortunately, I could not find this book, so I'm just going to have to go at it on my own!

Lee asked me last night - Why don't I ever do anything with my friends?

The answer ( Read more... )

Hard to believe that it's come to this. 39  years old today.  365 days away from 40. Am I ready for that?  Absolutely not.

I've got 1 year to get ready. So this is my bucket list.

1. Get healthy.  BIG goal!!  80lbs by 40.

2. Do things I enjoy. ie, writing!  I used to write almost daily, and now there's such a lack of time for everything. But I ( Read more... )

I lost my cool with a 7 year old last night. I broke down in tears, and let her know that if she and her brothers didn't smarten up, I'd be packing my bags and taking my daughter and I back to our own home.

So inappropriate!!

But, I lost it.  After 2 days of being screamed at, kicked, cleaning up pooped in pants, temper tantrums, and just flat out ( Read more... )