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Sep 14, 2005 17:53

So I thought I was smart when I left Bellaire for Episcopal; I thought I was finally going to get away from all of the bullshit that I had to deal with for two years. Five years if you count the time when I was causing all the immaturity. I don’t know if all of you know this but I think it’s been long enough for me to get over it and be able to ( Read more... )

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biznitch311 September 15 2005, 00:21:09 UTC

ok sarah, i am trying to relate this with me but i cant. i hope that this stuff you have written has nothing to do with ME because i cant understand how it does. i dont just talk to you when i have problems. i want to hang out with u and be your friend but i dont think you want to be mine in return. i'd be ur friend anyday sarah. i really dont know what your'e talking about at all in this and i hope its cuz none of it is about me. but its not like i dont try to me your friend. ive tried calling you so many times in the past couple of weeks and you have not answered ONCE. how do you think that makes me feel? i obviously get the vibe that you just dont want to talk to me at ALL. the letter i wrote in my entry... it wasnt done out of trying to be a bitch. i did it for the greater understanding. i tried calling you about it but you didnt answer so i figured the ONLY way i could get through to you was through LJ. and i obviously did. and i wasnt going to state your name. but right now theres a huge road block sarah because you WONT ANSWER ( ... )

lilgoldie September 15 2005, 02:27:52 UTC

I just wrote you a book of a responce and it got deleted ( ... )

biznitch311 September 15 2005, 02:34:27 UTC

so basically youre not going to be my friend because i understand you..maybe i understand you over the INTERNET sarah but how many times have we actually hung out in person for you to notice that i dont really act the same way or sit around analyzing things as much? fuck me getting better that doesnt matter cuz its not going to happen.

biznitch311 September 15 2005, 02:44:58 UTC

maybe you havent experienced the beauty of hanging out with someone as fucked up as yourself. (not saying youre as fucked up as me its just a statement) but i dont think youve ever tried it before. i think youre afraid that im just going to analyze you. but seriously sarah. youre just gonna ignore me cuz i understand you? maybe its because i wont let you manipulate me. trust me i know thats what people like me and you do best and i dont like hanging around smart people either. but its not like youve given it a chance. i mean think about it. we communicate mainly through the internet. when have we really gotten the chance to know eahcother in person. its so much different. but i cant force you to give me that chance. and what makes you think im just gonna sit around telling you what to do? sarah you can do whatever you want im not here to lead you to anything. i dont care what you do. (except for meth i would literally punch you if you ever did that) but the way i think of it is that you just dont want to hang out with me cuz im not ( ... )

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thiswontsaveyou September 15 2005, 00:39:16 UTC

I liked you in middle school. Long live Jabels!

lilgoldie September 15 2005, 02:19:03 UTC

I was myself around you. you grounded people like me, i guess i was trying to kill the monster the whole time.
Today and lately has just been shitty. I think I am gonna try to snag your job at ben and jerrys. I dunno.
Thanks for putting up with me, you're the best.
and fuck the jables.
SC, southcarolina or sarahcarly.

lover_dont_love September 15 2005, 01:25:42 UTC

well i love you and i heard everything and i think its all awful. i understand the jables/malckjr thing, and it sucks. just remember you're at a school with fewer girls, and if you have to walk around certain ways to avoid people, ive gotta do it too and it sucks. and i thank you for the short visit at the tea spot, even if the conversation was gross.
call me, girl.
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lilgoldie September 15 2005, 02:17:44 UTC

I hear there are rough waters for everyone.

Can we be friends? I sort of have a lack of right now. I am going to call you tonight. Chin up,, okay?

tons of love where none is
Sarah

lover_dont_love September 15 2005, 04:11:35 UTC

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lilgoldie September 15 2005, 02:31:02 UTC

please can you wait two seconds and realize i replyed to you too. I was just waiting to do yours last because it owuld be longest.

I HATE BEING BLAMED FOR FUCKING EVERYTHING LATELYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

babyray86 September 15 2005, 08:29:49 UTC

would you want to run away with me? becaus eive been wanting to bust out of here for a long ass time.
i know how you feel. except i was the girl in middle school who was a big dork, and the "popular" girls told me they wanted to be my friend. then in gym class they would hide my shirt and stupid stuff like that. fortunatly people change...and now its boys who want to steal my clothes. but i know how you feel, somewhat, and itll get better, youll get out of there. for the record there was a reason i was a book nerd, it involved being afraid to talk to anyone at school.
so lets run away, and then we wont have to deal with our lives for a day or two...or three...

lilgoldie September 15 2005, 13:39:09 UTC

or four or five, or like the rest of our lives. I thought you were one of the most fun coolest girls i have ever met in high school. there was a reason I wanted to be your little sister. thank you for the comment, its kinda made me feel better. I just can't wait to get out of high school so i don't have to deal with the bullshit.
i love you.