im trying to motivate myself ( Read more... )

i am in a reall cranky dont fuck with me mood. sometimes people just dont seem to give a fuck about anything but how THEY feel. and refuse to see some one elses view. i want to hit someone righ tnow.
hard
in the face.
thats all

its getting to the point where evrything is annoying me. everything. i am going to run away for just a little bit i think

last night i slept through my mothers birthday dinner. i totally didnt mean to but i got trashed the night before and didnt get any good sleep until about ten am and ended up sleeping till 9 or so. then went back to sleep till one and have been up since. i came home....but im never greeted with any sort of enthusiasm. my father wanted to know why i ( Read more... )

woah, i rarely ever get on here anymore. lately i dont spend more than five or ten minutes on the computer ( Read more... )

man sometimes i can be so weird ( Read more... )

despite that im on 3 or four different meds and cnstantly taking bars i still feel like shit. i know its begining to show too and i hate that. its so much easier when noone notices. its like nothing is working out the way it should lately, and really its that i have so much to get don with the moving and all that and i havent don one thing to make ( Read more... )

so, im sitting here pretending to study for art......kinda half listening to the streaming file or whatever it is. every five seconds my teacher says umm...ehhh..ahhh......so annoying ( Read more... )

i think every year i hate thanksgiving just a little bit more. i find it useless. we celebrate taking land and slaughtering the indigenous people and pretend we like everyone. i detest my family. my mother annoys the shit out of me, she is such a self rightcheos (butchered that word) bitch. my grandma is mean and depressing and i hate being up ( Read more... )

"i wish there was an over the counter test for lonliness"