I hate being disrespected.
I'm fine with being told that I'm doing something wrong.
I might not be able to fix it right away, but I'll be careful and work hard.
But once you disrespect me, I'll snap.
Especially if it involves other people.
I've never stormed out of my house before.

ugh bad way to start the day.

but I went to watch a movie. I liked ( Read more... )

I can't effin wait. to leave. home.
I can't do this anymore.
I'm so trapped and always making me feel guilty.
I get it. please. stop.
I just shut my mouth and I don't even want to talk.

this is the main reason I want to get into grad school.
seriously.
I don't care where I get into. I need to leave and live my life.
It hurts me a lot that I'm ( Read more... )

it's been a while since I cried watching friends.
why can't anyone say that to me?
or about me?

I NEED TO SLEEEEP 
come on friendsss! put me tp sleep! ahaha

<3

and so it begins.

today I woke up early to go work at the preschool.
It was so much fun. I met so many different kids with character.
They were all not shy with talking to me. hehe.
I'm excited to go in tomorrow :)

Then I went to the apartment to pick up more things.
ugh I don't want to leaaaave! so many memories.

I came home and knocked out. I only ( Read more... )

Today was a really good day.
I actually worked out yesterday with my dad at the gym.
I ran 1.5 miles, which was a huge surprise since I haven't 
ran in so long!!! I thought I was going to die...
but surprisingly I was able to keep going. Thanks to my pump up music!
I was super happy. but I fell asleep at like 930 b/c I don't usually
move much at home ( Read more... )

My very first post of 2011.
What a year it has been. I can't even write all the amazing memories I've had.
I felt like I didn't live my life to the fullest last year, but when you sit down and look at the past,
you really do realize how much you've done and how it really was the time of your life.

Now that I'm not in school anymore, I really do ( Read more... )

He left this afternoon.
I promised I wouldn't cry. and I didn't.
I'm not sure if I was all cried out from last week.
that I'm so glad that he's mine. and I'm confident we'll be fine.
Nothing could bring me down.

As soon as I got in the car I started crying though ahaha.
It helped that I had to go drop stuff off for my sister and see my mom at home ( Read more... )

I went to sleep a little bit bummed.
but woke up to a wonderful surprise. :) 
I was so happy.
But damn driving in the rain scares me :(
I hydroplaned a little bit. It's so scary!!! 
So many accidents on the freeway too.

But anyway. today was a good day.
I wrote a lot of xmas cards too.
I'm not even close to being done.
oh wells. It won't make it out in ( Read more... )

ok I deleted my posts that I just put up.
I wrote A LOT. and it was too much ahaha.

I listened to some of my favorite ppl sing Christmas songs.
and that made me feel better.

weird how people I've never met could do that.

you're right. it's not fair.
and I respect enough to accept that.

"Life is never fair, and perhaps it is a good thing for most of ( Read more... )

I should buy a punching bag.
or join kickboxing or something.
or go to the gym.
but I'm scared for the migraines.
GAH I hate how weak I am. 
physically and emotionally.
how did I get so weak? ! seriously wtf.
it pisses me off so bad.

how did I go from sad to trying to escape reality to pissed at myself ahaha.
talk about forcing my heart on a roller ( Read more... )