I have posted in this in almost 5 years. Geez. Well, a whole hell of a lot has changed. the next boyfriend that i didnt want to be a psycho turned out to be abusive. hes probably the hottest man alive, which is a shame. hes such an asshole. hes the most selfish guy ive ever dated. anything would be a step up. i really hate him. but i love him and ( Read more... )

my life is finally where i want it to be. yay! i have a job (that i actually like), i am about to start school, and NO BOYFRIEND, cuz im free to date! yay! and im about to go up north with some ears and relax. but im tired cuz the last few days ive had to get up at 4:30am. yawn. well, there really isnt much more to say, other than im happy. for ( Read more... )

theres something about thinking that makes me sad. when im alone, or i read thru old emails, it makes me sad. i have had so much fun in my life. but it all ends in an explosion. i miss so many things. i wish i could go back and have a do-over. just one. i would go back to when i was ten. i would make so many different choices. sometimes i hate who ( Read more... )

SAC training has been really devasting for me. i have gone through a lot of stuff, and i am tired. just plain tired. i stayed at linda's too late last night, drank, and had to get up at 7. i am TIRED. i wanted to sleep during the lecture this morning. but i didnt, as it was very informative. i start my new job tomorrow, and i am so emotionally ( Read more... )

i was never informed that i was an accident. lol. these things are so fricken funny. i am certainly not a jock! im more of an intellectual. lol. thats funny too.

i think the next boyfriend i have should not be a pyscho. that would be great! cuz it seems like i get a lot of those. O__O yeah. and they cant be a compulsive liar, obsessive, naive, ignorant, or YOUNGER. yeah that would rock. too bad i actually have a life so i dont need to surround it trying to find someone to love me. im so lucky to have a ( Read more... )

i just got out of SAC training. some things came up and i feel very triggered. i wish this hadnt happened.

all i want to do is help. thats all. i want to heal. is that so much to ask?

ok, i got the job, i dont know if i already said that, but i did and im so excited ( Read more... )

there will be a time when i feel i have control over my life. i just need to think about that sometimes. the most unexpected people have more control than they know. how do you take over something that is rightfully yours when it hasnt been for so long? how do you overcome the bully in your life ( Read more... )

i saw catwoman and it rocked! yay! that was not the best part of my day, considering i did A LOT of laughing yesterday, but it was up there ( Read more... )