Comments | lilith384: And so it goes

lilith384

And so it goes

May 09, 2007 19:49

I don't know how to put into words everything that has happened recently. I want to. But I start, and I can't seem to finish ( Read more... )

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adancingshiva May 10 2007, 04:11:20 UTC

Awww, hugs. I'm sorry things are kind of messed up, but seem to be going in a fucking awesome direction. Congrats! NYU is awesome. :)

You're going to be okay--I'll see you soon. I'll message you my cell number so you can call me if you're still up for hanging out at some point.

lilith384 May 10 2007, 16:35:30 UTC

Thanks. I'm not really sure what the plan is - I have next Friday and the Monday after off. I have to be in Chico for my brother's graduation, and I'm pretty sure I'm driving up by mysself. So I'm not actually sure we'd even be able to see each other if I do go through SF. But it's a thought.

krystalemerges May 10 2007, 07:02:40 UTC

hugs...there have been several times in my life that were transitions such as this...wishing you the best and I hope you will continue to stay in touch, no matter who your are that day...may you continue to follow your path.

bodhipuff May 10 2007, 17:50:45 UTC

Well I wouldn't say that not doing it (going to New York) would make you a failure. But I do think you would always wonder what if. It's natural for people to grow apart. That happens. That doesn't mean you won't reconnect some day. It's all part of growing.

And if you're afraid to go to NYU, it's okay. It's just an experiment and if it doesn't work out it's only because you are not happy, not because you've failed. You're you. And you can't be a failure at that. I promise.

I believe in you. I believe in you. I believe in you!

lilith384 May 10 2007, 18:16:22 UTC

Thank you. All of that means more to me than you probably realize. We must talk soon. We have so much to catch up on.

nagromthewicked May 11 2007, 16:06:27 UTC

Congratulations and good luck with NYU! Good on you for having the balls to go through with it, even if it's scary and difficult, just the fact that you're going for it makes you a success.

deessedusoleil May 15 2007, 05:08:07 UTC

i know that growing apart with a friend that's so close to you like that is not something that can be easily summed up in so few words.

whatever it was that happend between the two of you i hope you're alright.

and I also think that it's awesome that you're going to NY.
But like stephanie said, if you don't go, you're not a failure.

lilith384 May 15 2007, 16:33:37 UTC

I can't say that I'm alright yet. But I know I will be.

Although I had another uncle die on Saturday. My uncle Ken had a heart attack. I wasn't close to him, but I can't imagine how hard this must be on my grandmother and the rest of her children (my mom has 5 living siblings now).