To the Man in my Dreams ( Read more... )

I just had a dream that Kip cheated on me. In the Kip had invited one of his old female friends over to watch a movie. I didn't know what really happened once she left, but I bluffed that I did. The feeling was there that he'd done something so I told him that I'd caught a glimpse and was so hurt I walked away without doing anything. I kept it ( Read more... )

( up-dated book list )

I'm not going to write a long entry now. I've been keeping a journal on a pad of paper since I've been in and out of the hospital. I will transpose it later, when I have more time. Right now I've just popped on while I have a few minutes to start my book list for 2008. Tammers and Jeia do it and it seems like a fun thing. However last years book ( Read more... )

I should be sleeping, but my head was running in circles. There is only one thing for me to do when I have thoughts racing through my brain, put them down in an update. It helps me clear my head ( Read more... )

( Baby Story )

I think I'm about on my last straw. The feeling that I was just about through with the way Kip is behaving has been there for awhile. However, it really settled in last night. He had me so upset that I had one of those half sleepless, restless nights. One of those nights where you are in so much mental turmoil that you spend the hours not really ( Read more... )

If it isn't one thing it is another. I think I'm going to ask the social worker at the clinic I am going to if she can help me find a new place to live/stay. Kip is doing much better, but for some reason I just don't feel comfortable living here. The only time I get to see him is when I need something from him, other than that he is always playing ( Read more... )

Yesterday I was looking at Kip's Myspace profile and under children it says that he doesn't want any. I know it has probably been like that for a bit, but I also know that it wasn't like that before I was pregnant. He waited until I was already going to have his baby to switch his profile to say he didn't want kids. It is probably trivial, but it ( Read more... )

This entry will probably be short, but my mom thinks that with me being so emotional lately that trying to keep up with my journal is a very good thing. It is just getting harder. I feel like I throw up ever fifth or sixth meal I eat. I know I'm loosing wait. They have tracked that at the doctors office. I've lost almost 10 pounds. They said that ( Read more... )