Today the school made me go home early because I had a fever. I was mad; my day was going to be easy and I didn't feel perfect- but I certainly didn't feel feverish. I waited for my mom and watched the nurse flip through her flowering magezine, and had a good conversation with the assistant nurse about summer attire. i went home and slept, alot ( Read more... )

Break is basically over. I'm burning time until Arrested Development comes on. My vision is swirling and my head kills. Every beat of the music playing makes each nerve in my brain throbb. But with this headache is a strong sense of comfort, as I lounge in my chair and look at my pictures and smell zebra candles and the scent my sister left. My t- ( Read more... )

It is so. so early. Why am I up? I couldn't sleep mosta the night. I'm not really sure why; guess I just have alot on my mind. Break so far has been good, it's surprising that i've been pretty busy when no one is really home. I miss alota people- it's been hard functioning without Bri cause I usually talk to her or see her like 5 times a day. I'm ( Read more... )

Today hasn't been what I expected it to be, though it started out nice. It was supposed to be relaxed and fun, which some of it was- considering my state. There were just strange moments in the day, that made me angry and sad all at once; i am exhausted. My way of dealing was acting really anxious and talkative-- like during lunch. so i apologize, ( Read more... )

i am currently waiting for my love bri, and procrastinating on taking a shower. so i thought i'd scribble in this a lil. this week has been long and hectic, and i am so thrilled that it is over. i should prolly just sleep the rest of the day, which may happen regardless of who wonders into my house. My voice is frusterating me sosoo much. me being ( Read more... )

It is sunday evening, even though it is still light out. I have roughly 100 pages to do in my apamer textbook, which of course i thought i'd do all friday night; but something came up. I like this little thing to type in- no matter how ridiculous it is. It gives me an excuse not to be looking at my 10 lb AMERICAN JOURNEY bullshit book ( Read more... )

BLAH. just blah blah blah blahhhhhhhhhhhhh ( Read more... )

Indeed, in our country, and in all classes, there are, and always will be, strange easy-going people whose destiny it is to remain always beggars. They are poor devils all their lives; quite broken down, they remain under the domination or guardianship of some one, generally a prodigal, or a man who has suddenly made his fortune. All initiative is ( Read more... )

Alright- this very much needs to be said. I told a couple people today, but i think a PUBLIC announcement is appropriate ( Read more... )

i am so absolutely stunned and crushed by everything that has happened to me today. funny how easily people can fuck you over, both strangers and friends. funny how confused i am about every single thing in my life. funny how i don't know if things will ever go back to normal with my parents; i've messed up i guess ( Read more... )