So, I have a baby now!! She was born on Jan 5th (my dads bday too, haha). It was kind of a rough road. Had some major complications during labor and ended up having an emergency c-section. The baby almost died, I almost died... It was scary. But were both here and healthy thanks to Dr Dixon!! She was 6 lb 13 oz and 19.7 inches long... She is so ( Read more... )

Well, for those of you that dont know yet, ITS A GIRL!!! I knew it was, haha... but I couldnt be happier. She is moving around like crazy in there too... Man, I wish Robert were here to experience this with me. But I know I will see him in our daughter every day ( Read more... )

I find out what my baby is on thursday (the 11th). Im so excited it ridiculous... For some reason I think its a girl, but we will see ( Read more... )

Well, I guess some days are better than others... I have been feeling alright for the most part lately. I got a new job that I love, and I got to relax a lot this weekend. But when I went to sleep last night everything changed. All I dreamed about was him. He was here, back in my life, and everything was perfect. We were so happy, and all we talked ( Read more... )

You can talk all the shit about me you want to, and I couldnt give a shit less. But the second you say something bad about him, its over. You might as well scratch me off your list forever. Who are you to judge him? And to determine whether or not he loved me? Quite frankly, its none of your god damn business. Im sorry that you couldnt stand that I ( Read more... )

So Im still here, and getting fatter by the second... I decided today that even though I am pregnant, there is no reason for me to get ridiculously fat... So I spent 2 hours exercising and doing my pilates for abs DVD... And then what did I do immediately afterwards?? Ate a pint of chocolate ice cream... Real smart, right? Anyway, I couldnt help ( Read more... )

Wow, its been a while since Ive updated... Things are going OK I suppose. I had my first prenatal appointment on June 6th, and I found out I was only 9 weeks, so that was kind of disappointing. But I still got an ultrasound, which was awesome... I could see the little heartbeat and everything. Brooks went with me, and I was so thankful. I would ( Read more... )

I didnt realize until this weekend how much I still think about him. And I also didnt realize how much pain I am still holding inside. John was is town this weekend, and he stayed with Bonnie and I. When it was just me and him, we had a long talk about everything and the more I talked, the bigger the lump in my throat got. Its just so wierd, ( Read more... )

I feel like a dumbass.. I had no idea what had been said and I am so sorry I was insensitive. I should learn not to get my stories from other people.... I hope they will forgive me ( Read more... )

OK, I'm still alive yall... Im just here to give you another look at my crazy life... So about a month ago, I moved in with Bonnie at her parents house. Things were crazy at my house, and I needed somewhere to stay until Bonnie and I moved into our new house (which now happens to be 12 short days away). So her parents have been really awesome and ( Read more... )