I simply cannot fathom how a person as screwed up as I was can have come this far. What  cured me? My alcoholism? The people I have met? My full-time jobs? I don't know what it could possibly have been, but I am finally in a safe place. And now I am getting myself MARRIED?

Rick Penney is the sweetest, gentlest man I have ever met... SO not my type ( Read more... )

 It's been a long time.. I'm not quite sure what caused me to neglect this site. I've been a very busy bee the last two years. I have since discovered much about myself and others that reading back through my old posts have made me realize were inaccurate. I don't believe that my paranoia about my health was well founded. I have re-evaluated my ( Read more... )

One month is a long time to look back on, but it flies by in a heartbeat ( Read more... )

This was the first birthday i celebrated that didn't include cake, gifts, or other "essentials". I worked all day, came home and got two cards, and watched the olympics ( Read more... )

I don't know what the fuck i'm doing anymore.
I may have just lost two very important people in the same night.

What have I done?

http://youtube.com/watch?v=adYbFQFXG0U&feature=related

"I hate the way you talk to me. And the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots. And the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick-- it even makes me rhyme. I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh -- ( Read more... )

I'm a fucking grandmother!
How sweet is that?!??!

Willow has birthed three kittens so far, I think maybe one more is on it's way.
Theyre so hard to tell apart at this stage... but theyre all dark colored, maybe tabbys? Maybe Tuxedos like momma, but i'm not sure.

Updates to come!

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i should be in boot camp right now. Today would have started my second week ( Read more... )