This entry is for Adrian.

[lilly5788]

you always told me 2 tell you how i felt. whether i was mad at u or what not. i've always been told by everyone 2 express my feelings so dummy me i listened and i exploded on ya. at the time i wasnt sorry cuz i had felt that way for so long. like almost 6 weeks long. that would of been why u noticed my attitude change. i felt betrayed. like i was

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[spazgirl469]

y r u trying to take it back if it is how u really felt? that is the way u felt and there is no being sorry about that. yes u told me and give u a standing ovation for that, but u should have talked to me in person, not over the net. and u should have talked to me b4 about all the little things and not let them all build up into one big thing like u did. had u have done that things wouldn't have turned out the way that they did. i noticed ur attiude change and that is y i started having ashley eat with us. and i ALWAYS tryed gettin u in the convo. but u only ignored me and her. i' sorry that u felt as if i were ignoring u but really it was the other way around. if that is how u really felt then don't bother taking it back. it would be pointless. u would only be lieing to yourself and the others around u. and that is worng.u were never the side kick. u were my first mate. u want another chance? we all want a second chance. all i'm askin God for for christmas is a second chance for my bro. but i don't fore see that happining. i can try

[lilly5788]

its not that im trying to take back how i really felt i just wish i would of just kept it all inside. because then we wouldnt have this. this is why i have always kept my feelings inside. it may not seem like the best thing 2 do 2 some people but with me i can go years without ever saying a peep about how i am feeling. i dunno thats just how i am and how i will always be. things werent easy at home and thats why my attitude changed in the beginning. afterwards it was because i felt ignored. and everyone else at the table were always mentioning how i never talked at lunch. thats how i felt. my feelings about saying something have changed herendously now tho. i lied to myself when i told myself i was happy without u in my life. im not. i cant pretend ne more. if i was ur first mate how come i always felt like the side kick? u brought her 2 soccer meetings and everything so i sat there alone because u didnt try talking 2 me. i wish ur bro all the luck in the world!!! i know we will never be as close. i fucked up i know that. i just want

[spazgirl469]

u said u wanted the truth even if it hurt u. well i told u it. i don't know if u will hurt me again, but there is that chance and i don't know if i am willing to take it just yet. the wound are still bleeding. i don't need salt rubbed in them. rachael never hurt me, just pissed me off in the worst mannor possible. there is a difference. u hit me in the one place that could really hurt me and i can never forget that. i know i hurt u. i never denied it. and for all that don't know it I HURT HER!!!! I HIT HER WERE I KNEW IT WOULD HURT HER THE MOST! I FOUGHT DIRRTY! SO WHAT?! happy. just remember u took the first swing, and u knew that i would fight back. u knew it cuz the only ppl that know me better than u are my bro and me. so u should have known were it all was goin to go that nite. u knew i would retaliate, and u knew that i wouldn't care how i hurt u as long as i did. i know about home troubles, trust me. if i lose brent this house will no longer b a home. ur preching to the chior there my dear. u want the truth? even if it hurts? i