i can't describe how i feel. i'm anxious/scared/lonely/angry/hurt and so much more. i don't know what i need anymore. i don't know if i can ever be fixed/healed. i don't know who i am or what i will ever be able to become. my heart/soul/mind aches and i can't seem to soothe the pain.

have you ever felt broken?

binge/purge/binge/purge. it doesn't stop. i can't seem to make the voices in my head stop screaming. everything is quiet as i stuff grahamcrackersgranolabarscookies in my mouth. i am focused (on satisfying that damn craving for sweets). i drink cups of water. hoping that it will make "it" easier in the end. i feel that it is time to stop. i pull ( Read more... )

i know i said i wouldn't write about eating habits but it's on my mind ( Read more... )

I'm starting new with this journal. i'm hoping that this year will have happier moments. i'm hoping that this journal will be filled with more than my eating problems but with what i'm experiencing in life.