i went to my psychologist today, he was nice. and i really opened up to him and talked pretty damn good, i was proud of myself. i thought i'd stumble over all my words and seem like a freak. i'm glad i'm doing this. mom was in the room with me the first 45 minutes. i only get to stay for an hour. but anyway, i learned that my dad's side and my mom' ( Read more... )

i got up today at 9:30, feeling like it was 7:00, i was so tired and wanted desparately to go back to sleep. but i had to get up and do 'all my stuff' before i could talk to dana. so when i'm done and finally call him, he tells me he's geting off in a few minutes to take a shower. then soon after his shower he'd have to leave for work. i was so ( Read more... )

i put up christmas decorations last night, but our tree has vanished, so i couldn't put that up. :/ plus we have another box of stuff hidden somewhere, because i hardly found anything good to put up. the house doesn't look half as good as i had wanted ( Read more... )

i can't explain myself to him anymore, and when i try, it makes no sense. and i feel like he thinks i'm crazy anyway, no matter what i say. i feel like i'm going crazy just trying to make this work. i get so stressed out and upset just trying to explain myself to him and how he doesn't understand anything. when he thinks he does. he tells me what i ( Read more... )

well i took a shower, and got online a lot. then i played my cake mania game until i almost beat it, but not quite. i watched charmed and some other stupid show. we gave honey a bath. and she bit my pinky figer. :( it hurt! lol she was so freaking cute though. now i'm doing laundry and waiting for dana to call me. mommy got us starbucks. i'm still ( Read more... )

dana's working tonight so i don't getta talk to him until after 9:00. :/ i have to go do the dishes ugh ( Read more... )

yesterday i felt like SHIT. i just came home and was planning on sleeping. but isaiah brought cane and annalyse over for us to watch. so i got up and watched them/watched the breakup. which was really good by the way. but was also depressing at the same time. annalyse was of course being a little brat. mouthy as usual. damn i kinda feel sory for ( Read more... )

HAHH....well i called starbucks and the manager wasn't in and is suppsoed to call me back. :/ i doubt i got it because if i had they probably would have called me already. :/ *sigh* jeeze ( Read more... )

another one of my fish died, the day after cookie did. and she was in a different tank. i just saw her under a fake tree and knew she was died. i put them in plastic bags with water to take to the pet store to see what was wrong with them. but i doubt that's going to happen so i'm going to have to flush them down the toilet. but i just ate a lot ( Read more... )

it took me hours to finally get here. and i've had a bad day and i had a lot to say...stupid website ( Read more... )