so i last night i had my first car accident. i'm ok, just a little cut on my head, and i'm a little sore. my car wouldn't shift and i ended up off the road and bounced my head off my windshield. lucky for me i was maybe a mile from forest's place so i called him and he came and got me out of the car. then called allen told him i went off the road ( Read more... )

Lately I feel like I could be standing in the middle of a room full of people and it wouldn't matter, no one would see me. I could be screaming my head off and no one would hear me. Murrr........god damn having my selfesteam run over by my ex. Damn him for telling me I was crazy, for making me feel like I was nothing. And what pisses me off is I ( Read more... )

Sorry if I ain't perfect
Sorry I don't give a what
Sorry I ain't a diva
Sorry just know what I want
Sorry I'm not a virgin
Sorry I'm not a slut
I won't let you break me
Think what you want

I've been in a funk this last week. I know what's causing some of it, but there's a large part I'm not sure about. I want to go run screaming into the night, I want to hide and not deal with people. There's only one maybe 2 people who I wouldn't mind being around, but that's not happening tonight. One is on his way to a party (which I wasn't in the ( Read more... )

With every flick of my lids
i see a place that reflects my life revolved in sin
a place where agony is my favorite melody
this is my gruesome sanctuary

Enter my home, my life, my mind
i truly cherish this destination for its only mine
and no one can find.
a place with every blink, the smell of stale fear
engolves the air
and the thought of ( Read more... )

She wants her nails painted black ( Read more... )

I figured it out, I grew up and became an adult. It took me a few months to realize this but last night out of the blue after talking to Kevin it hit me. I became an adult and he didn't. WOW

so when did it stop becoming ok to hang out with your friends who are dating other people? it's not like i want to fuck these people, they're my friends and i like spending time with them, talking with them, going to the movies or having lunch with them. when did it become ok for their boyfriends/girlfriends to control their lives and keep them ( Read more... )

There's gotta be something more
Gotta be more than this
I need a little less hard time
I need a little more bliss
I'm gonna take my chances
Taking a chance I might
Find what I'm looking for
There's gotta be something more

Some believe in destiny, and some believe in fate
I believe that happiness is something we create
You best believe that I'm not ( Read more... )

So monday i had to put down my cat, turns out he was older than we thought he was and his health was going down hill fast. he had stopped eating over the weekend. it's odd walking into the house and not having him here. i miss him lots, i just hope now he's in a better place.