yo... well im waiting for my dad to get home from wherever the hell he went.. im getting really impatient cause i wanna go out since its a friday noche and i could be doing something fun rite now. im watching a show on the national geographic channel called coral reef. its pretty intersting.. rite now theres a ray thing electrocuting a fish.. what ( Read more... )

1 week and 4 days sober! not much but hey im getting there. i just finished getting some stuff ready that i have to turn in to mr.purdom to get into journalism. i included some random pictures and a sort of opinion piece i wrote last year in ms.sims class. it was a pretty good essay i guess and sounds pretty much like whats in the cougar rite now i ( Read more... )

hmm well i havent really done anything today except clean my aunts disgustingly dirty car, vacuum her dirty ass floors and take care of her kid while she was gone.. umm.. oh yeah my mom called me to give me a lecture on how my friends are druggy losers and i need to find better ones and what not.. there was more to it than that but i do see her ( Read more... )

AAHH!!! IM SO FUCKING ANGRY!!! FUCK MY DAD!!!!!!!!!!! his bitch ass picked me up and wont let me do anything and its a fucking friday cause i lied to him last thursday.. i dont see why hes even tripping cause i havent missed any classes this week, i told him in family therapy my whole self improvement plan and hes still not fucking giving me any ( Read more... )

ive been pretty peppy and good tempered lately.. things so far have been pretty good and im gonna make sure they stay that way. i'm on day 2 of my sobriety and i know all you fuckers out there dont think i cant do it but im gonna be clean for good. once i get a month or 2 under my belt it will be a piece of cake. its been kinda tough though cause ( Read more... )

man.. i woke up about 20 mins ago.. last nite was really fun. i went to albany and then hung out with tyler for a little bit in the park behind the asian mall. then i got picked up by jake and sean and went to see the midnight movie in berkeley with some of their chick friends from el cerrito. it was hella fun despite the cold and rain and we ( Read more... )

whoo hoo.. todays my birthday..its been pretty lonely though.. i woke up to my mom yelling at me to tell my brother to stop smoking in his room which i did then i went for a walk to the albany waterfront by myself. there were a lot of people with dogs and kids there so i sat on some rocks by the water and bobbled in and out of reminisces and ( Read more... )

wow man, im so stoned and its only 7:30.. wut the fuck.. life is very pleasant rite now.. im figuring so much shit about myself that i would never really know. man... i know what i have to do to get shit moving in my life but its like it seems like the harder way out but i think i'll make it.. i just have to get rid of some habits and trade them ( Read more... )

hmm today was ok i guess.. lately i've been thinking a lot about why im so weird and fucked up in the head.. its all starting to make some sense now.. i know what i need to make my life better but its so much harder than just staying at the rate that im going now where is pretty much nowhere.. i think thats what makes me so much different from ( Read more... )

i woke up this morning wishing i was dead.. i dont really know what to do with myself anymore.. all i do is bathe in my own self pity and pointless despair and expect the world to have a bright glimmer of hope. my life so far has been a culmination of materialistic pursuits, which of course lead to nothing except every vice that enevitably destroys ( Read more... )