man.. my therapist gave me such a fucking post sex buzzkill... im kinda pissed about it but wutever man.. she did it for my own good.. it was basically on the subject of my drug use and how i should start getting treatment before it becomes a problem again.. shes right but.. fuck i dont want to rite now.. its before the summer and the summers ( Read more... )

mmmmaaannn... what a fucking day... during 5th period i cried because i lost my bottle of prozac and i havent taken it in a few days.. well.. so yeah.. i had my chemical imbalance which was kinda good cause it made me a lot more calm and ok for the day.. i also wrote some poems in my notebook.. and umm yeah.. after school i stopped home then went ( Read more... )

today sucked... i had a really big fight with my brother today and he hit me really fucking hard a few times.. he went crazy. it all pretty much started cause he took my dads car cause his isnt working and picked me up from kaiser. i needed to get some money from my grandma and he was pretty much demanding that i get him at least $20, which i found ( Read more... )

j'aime mon loup!! things have been going pretty good.. my fathers in vietnam visiting his lady friend.., i heart adam, umm.. yeah.. thats all thats really going on..

hmm.. for some reason i feel kinda unhappy rite now.. i really dont know why other than my mom heard a voice message from an albany cop saying that i was trying to buy alcohol and whatnot.. yeah.. i dunno i guess im really disappointed with myself cause i smoked on saturday and my application to schoolwork has gone to shit.. all i really wanna do ( Read more... )

wow.. i never thought saying goodbye to someone could be so hard.. i love being with adam. he makes all my negative feelings just dissolve when i'm with him. i couldnt be any more grateful to have him.

i just got to my muthas house.. my dads off buying something so he doesnt have to delete all my pictures and stuff on the computer cause its dying.. man.. if my things get deleted i will be sooo fucking mad/sad.. well.. anyways.. hmm i left my cell fone and a shoe at evans house yesterday so hopefully i'll get them from adam soon..<3 hmm.. well i ( Read more... )

hmm hello all.. i havent written in here for a little while.. so umm i guess i shall today. well.. im getting over a cold i just had so thats good.. i really want some resturant food but i really dont know what.. i could really go for anything.. too bad i dont have money.. oh well.. im happy with the spearmint tea im drinking. i have a therapy ( Read more... )

my mom just said a comment about how me and my brother always ruin her big plans and vacations and how having shorty around is so much better cause he doesnt talk. well.. wutever.. im bored and i wish i had some fun plans tonite but i dont.. i had my mind set today to clean my mothers car but there was no outlet in the garage that i could find for ( Read more... )

friday nite was very fun.. i shroomed with claire, ben, johnny and milad. me, claire and milad wandered off pretty far from where we originally were and i forgot my bag where ben and johnny were so i begged them to get it for me. they were pretty pissed about it cause i guess it fucked up their trip but wutever.. i said i was sorry and i felt bad ( Read more... )