I've got to church a lot more lately. It makes me so happy. I love it (sometimes more sometimes less.) Tara got burned last night at Pastor Drew's house. It was so funny ( Read more... )

I dont feel good. My foot hurts. I miss *him* like WHOA! It gets harder everyday not easier. Blah my mood sucks. I'm not even supposed to be upstairs right now. I'm going to rest & lay back down.

The past couple of days have been so busy. The Cruise wasn't that great this year. I really missed my cuz Dani. But on the other hand I got to see my little cuz's Lewis & Mike...then the older kick ASS (in Steven's voice) cousins Sam & Steven. I still can't believe Sam bought that 68 Olds! For some reason, this year The Cruise just wasn't the same ( Read more... )

Last night I decided to write. I don't do it often. I wasn't planning on letting anyone see it. But I let Sheana read it, get her insight & then I sent it Alex. That was a long time coming. Hopefully, if I know him as well as I do, he won't let me walk away from our friendship. We'll see what happens. I whole heartedly believe we're supposed to be ( Read more... )

**Okay it's too soon for me to leave this the way I had originally wanted to. Maybe in a few weeks/months I'll put it to public but for now it's gonna be friends only ( Read more... )

*sighs* So...I get this e-mail today from Alex hehe! :-) He was asking how I was feeling & all that good stuff lol. Okay, not really he was wondering if umm yea...I had started...the answer to that is no...but I'm not supposed to till sat the 5th...3 days away. Each day I get a little more nervous. Me & my memory, dates specifically...I hadn't ( Read more... )

I'm starting to get nervous now...it should be 4 days from now but who knows...I just long to hear his voice no matter what kinda mood he is in.

I can't sleep. My mouth is killing. I don't think I can have anything either cuz of my surgery in the AM. I'm very anxiety ridden concerning lots of different issues ( Read more... )

As of right now my mouth doesn't hurt so wahoo. But when it does wow here come the vicodin! I have a slight fever. Just don't feel that great. I couldn't get that lucky. Plus my mood isn't the best either ( Read more... )

I'm sooooo thankful & grateful, overcome with tears. Alex did cum up and visit for the day. :-) He came over at like 1:30 & stayed til about 10:30. It was so nerve racking. My insecurities came through some, but oh well. So it went like this. We chit chated for a while on my couch, made love for a while, left my house, went to the movies saw Click ( Read more... )