So.. decent news. Daddy gets sentenced July 8, and he will get 41-51 months. 41-51 months too long, but it still could be a lot worse than the original 115 year maximum sentence. I thank God for that, because without him I don't see it happening. I am also thankful Daddy has come around to the whole religion idea, and it may be an answered prayer. ( Read more... )

It's been a while dear journal. I've abandoned you several times, but still you are always here ready for me to vent and update again. Thank you. Ha.. I type like you're a person and actually have feelings. I'm crazy. Honestly slowing realizing how very much so day by day. If it weren't for Josh I'd be in the looney bin by now. No lie... sometimes ( Read more... )

Oh hell I wish I could get online and post how wonderful my life is going.... how great my nonexistent job is.... how great my relationship with josh is... how great I'm getting along with my mom.... and especially how I've just up and decided I don't miss my Daddy one tiny bit. Too bad that damn genie we used to joke about has never showed up. I  ( Read more... )

well what to even say? where to even begin? the world and the Lord works in the most mysterious ways. I miss my Daddy. I miss my family being normal. They will never be able to be normal. It will have to be separated and going to the races will never be an option for my Daddy. The one joy in his life if he does get out will be ruined. Bubba Momma ( Read more... )

LIfe is one strange twisted series of events right after the other. Something finally starts to feel normal then BOOOOOOOM life happens and we're in disarray again. It doesn't matter how good you try to be because life happens to the best of us. I guess some things are handed to us so we can prove how strong we really are. Or aren't in some ( Read more... )

Here it is.. end of August and time's flying by quick ( Read more... )

So I am a complete fuck up. To the tee entirely and without a doubt. I've been manipulated and emotionally destroyed and it's my own stupid fault. Kevin has left me high and dry with nota dollar to my name, and he doesn't give a fuck. If it wasn't for Quan I don't know what I would do. I want to get back into the drug dealing business to make easy ( Read more... )

So in about 20 minutes me and kev will officially be together for 2 months. I love the hateful ass, but at least he's my hateful ass. I may be sharing him, but I haven't found out yet. I have serious trust issues still... but maybe he's into me and just me. Who knows. i definetly share him with a pill addiction, but I must say it's slowly getting ( Read more... )

So I had my birthday. Guess what Kevin got me? Nothing. A loan. I'm officially broke, and it may be crazy but I'm happy. I have a loser for a boyfriend, but he's my loser and I can't help but just want to be with him. I really love him journal, and I wish that I didn't. I may be groaning around in a little bit when I have no cable lights or a cell ( Read more... )

So.. Mikey called me, and I'm glad. It was good to hear from him, his voice is so soothing to me. Rob ended up calling me today too, and i had Taylor and Madi in the car with me. Mikey JP and Jordan are snitchin on him, and that sucks. I never thought that would happen, but that's how people are when they get into trouble. Evidentally it was part ( Read more... )