I am officially signed up for classes pertaining to my major this fall.
FINALLY. Feels like a new beginning, but it also feels a bit like the beginning of the end. Both are welcome feelings.

i get a shit ton of stuff done when i dont sleep. seriously. last night i scanned in a bunch of shit to send my mom, vaccummed, dusted, kitchen, de cluttered, helped my boo alyssa work out a cost sheet for moving out, skyped with ash for like an hour, cleaned out my bathroom cabinets, organized, 2 loads of laundry and lots of texting. oh and i ( Read more... )

oh well.

i feel like i'm back in high school again. it's all very silly. i don't know what more to say about it really. i just feel like a silly high school girl who's all giddy and stupid and doing something stupid. like with julian, walking on a tightrope above a bunch of sharks with laser beams (yes the ones from austin powers ( Read more... )

well somehow I never ended up going to bed. I think I took my adderall to late. Actually I did figure out what did it, I took an adderall and a caffeine pill before i left the house yday, then another adderall at 2pm. I didn't end up eating until 8pm that night and I worked all day. My metabolism was basically DEAD STOPPED and my body had ( Read more... )

I'm sick of games. Apathy should be much easier than this. Epic fail on the not caring front. Maybe its the lack of sleep. I wanted to go to sleep but I just never did. I couldn't fall asleep. Id love to call into work, but missing 3 weeks pits a damper on that. I'm sure things will be better after I sleep. Tomorrow.

SO I was going to come back so I could write down everything that's been happening. So my grama died. Mom called me on a tuesday and told me that hospice was getting involved and by thursday June 10th I was in texas. I walked into the house and the hospice worker was at the table talking about all of her meds and stuff. She was sleeping, which ( Read more... )

so the past i dunno 2 week. 3 weeks? they have been alot. On June 8th, my mom called me and told me Hospice was getting involved. Very late June 16th she died. A few hours prior i had a nice conversation with her, and as far as I know I was the last one to speak with her ( Read more... )

i'm flying to texas tomorrow to say goodbye to my grama. she just hasn't been getting better and it's her tome or whatever.
what do you say to someone who you are never ever going to see again?

so I'm in boston. I was here exactly one year ago. Last time I was here I was auditioning for BoCo for my undergrad-again. I was unsure of my path and deluded in the fact that I was going to get a degree in musical theater. I'm sorry what?! Me?! yeah I dont know wtf i was thinking. I was living in westchester still. Not really working. I came here ( Read more... )