Why does my body control me? Why can't I stop? I feel so out of control. It's like a dizzying spiral downward. I feel lonely. I think I can control it, I think I can tame it, I think I can contain it, but I can't. It overpowers me. It slips in and strangles me ( Read more... )

Dive just came on. It reminded me of last year's first Encounter. I really wish I could have gone on Fall Retreat this year, because last year's was soo amazing and fun. But God definitely had me in Greensboro for a reason (besides the chocolate fountain hehehehehe!).

You know, I'm coming to realize how much I really appreciate everyone at the CSC. Even if it isn't growing and booming like some had hoped, I really like what it has morphed into. A family. Yeah, a crazy shifting family that can't really decide on a language (woo im learning spanish!). But still I can't walk in with out hearing hellos and seeing ( Read more... )

I think I may start LJing again. Hmm this could be interesting.

questions questions
truth? for for?
proof, true
but history long ago
maybe changed since
psychology disrupts me
hold faith same child

questioning questioning
what is truth? why does it matter?
yes, there is proof that is true
but it is history from long ago
could it be skewed thru time?
psychology interupts my thoughts
i hold to faith like a

Oh wow oh wow what a week its been. Can you say roller coster...bit more down than up though I do prefer to look on the up side so thats why I haven't really been writing. Basically, I've been really lonely and down the past week except for my awesome Bible study with Nikki. That has been my buoy in the storm. I got down then I decided to just kind ( Read more... )

1. Who are you ( Read more... )

Ever have those times when you feel like you just keep falling and scraping your knees? Or you think that you have caught your balance so you try to run, only to fall yet again? Like a toddler just learning to walk. Sometimes I'm like that. Its like I turn to God and say "I can do it by myself daddy". But since God knows that sometimes the only way ( Read more... )

Yeah for those of yall who are actually reading this: sorry! I was planning on updating each night but (excuses to follow:) retreat threw me off because I came back behind and then my computer was slow. Now I can actually claim to be studying, which is occasionally important. I'll update when I get the chance. (yup Kendyl it will probably be

Hehe I forgot to mention my oops of last night. Okay LSU decided to change the email program on paws. Thats great and wonderful and all not that I really cared because I just have it forward my mail anyway. So after I got back this summer I hit the "migrate" button to switch email programs, only thing is though, I didn't realize that it didn't keep ( Read more... )