I've been gone for a couple of reasons. One, I've been way too busy with work and the holidays. Then, I know my b/f reads my journal and I've been building up alot of resentment and hurt from him and for some reason I didn't want him to know. But then I decided he needs to know and if we break up I will deal with that and if we work things out, ( Read more... )

Poor, dear little journal. Have I have neglected you. There are many reasons for that. But I shall do better. A big shout-out to all my other live journal friends I've missed, Frustrated...Sierra....the rest of you ( Read more... )

Billy would have been 22 today. I wonder what he would have been like? He sure was a beautiful child. Sigh ( Read more... )

I got alot done today. And I feel much better about that. Worked 9 1/2 hours straight today. Took one 10 min. break and sat outside with the smokers and passively gave myself cancer. The sun felt good. And I do feel less stressed in some ways. My personal life is on the skids and I still want to hide under my blanket and never come out. Which is ( Read more... )

Monday mornings suck. So I didn't get up in time to go work out. And I gotta get to work by 7:30 today. If not sooner. I'm stressing. I laid in bed last night thinking of all the work I have to do that is late. Then I was thinking of all the things I have to do to get the 3 cars up and running and/or sold. So I just laid there stressing and ( Read more... )

I'm back home! Long drive but wasn't that bad. Bill and I caught up on things on the way out there. We have both come to the same conclusion...we suck at being married. I might even take that a step further and say I suck at being in a relationship. Unless it's with a cat. Then I rock! Meow! We got to Roanoke and went furniture shopping. The ( Read more... )

I feel better today. Although I had weird, vivid dreams again last night. At least this time I wasn't getting fired and going to jail. G told me to take some vitamins last night so I did. A multi plus B-Complex. I feel more energetic today. Which kinda sux since I'll be in the car all day. Oh well. At least I know I won't fall asleep while ( Read more... )

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That's how I'm feeling. And brain dead. What is my native language? English, right? Then how come I can't grasp prepositions, independent clauses and the rest of that grammatical crap? I feel so stupid ( Read more... )

3 loads in the dryer now, 3 in the washer. Got about 3 more after this. I have way too many clothes. I'm paring down my wardrobe today. Got a pile for the Goodwill. Bedroom is getting somewhat straight. I've gone thru the boxes on my floor and my papers. I need another cabinet or dresser type thing for my stuff. Maybe the Goodwill will have ( Read more... )