did it! I finally did it! it was lots of navigating the kaiser 'system', and it took a long time but it was relatively painless compared to some of the other guys stories I've read and heard. But I got my first shot of testosterone and I'm not a man yet but closer, 2 day old boy i suppose ( Read more... )

For I thought this was a private forum but my employer found my journal and all is well but I felt violated so I'm locking this thing closed.

Eventually I'll probably start something new but be more cautious cryptic...

I can't believe how fucking amazing this place has been so far, far exceeding my hopes and dreams, last night was an early sunday evening coming back to our hostel sometime after 4AM only to have the hottie behind the counter give us shit for not partying hard enough ( Read more... )

I've asked the world to call me Kai

-Hop a bird to Miami in 9 hours, need to pack, peace

I feel more secure with myself today than I have in a long while ( Read more... )

I broke up with Maryam
Hope it was the right choice
I think it was
She didnt seem to mind, said this relationship wasnt making her feel good
We both admitted that there was personal growth and made an agreement to have no drama, be civil, etc.
Hard not too hurt
Pain not as bad as relationships past

I want to read PRIDE AND EXILE by Eli Clare, mostly a note for myself to buy the book when I return from Miami, but I saw him speak last night and I was truly inspired in a way I have not been for some time. His work has so many layers and his way of communicating was so thoughtfully genuine and respectful of privalages that many of us have yet to

penduluum ( Read more... )

priorities are shifting.

I am gonna do it I swear I am close what a trip this is to be conscienously in the closet maryam has been great very supprtive I am afraid it's an awkward thing for sure how do you say I am still the same treat me differently callme kai I'm a he a him not she what bathroom do I use can we please get a gender nuetral but I'm still the same I ( Read more... )