karaoke and sharks, guerneville, did i go with friends the same time a year ago when i was in love, king tut, mini fucking golf, my short term disability is over, i am pleased, happy to move my body, push ups, crunches and pedaling everyday, oxygen feels clean and clear here, or maybe its just my pores, those lingering memories still creep up, i ( Read more... )

I know she's doing her damned best but god damn I am royally ticked and wanting to be permanately ridden of this weight that feels so tight it's taken a long time to get what folks have been saying for so long time to choose my family surround myself with the people I want to be near folks I can count on that I can trust that don't repeadetly let ( Read more... )

Maybe home tonight! Maybe maybe maybe

I'm stuck in hidden valley California

The same god damn mistakes

My parents are selfish

I want to break the pattern
I have the same behaivor
I will change
Its not too late

In the meantime I need to get the fuck out of here I feel trapped

I can't stop thinking about rose and becky and generally just dwelling in distant memories be present aware here wherever that is made the mistake of going home with my mom to this strange place ive never been the ashtray of a car broke down in the sweltering heat 110 I swear nicotine melted all over my personal belongings but were carless and ( Read more... )

Technology is craZy.
I'm still a cripple , going on disability maybe, 2 weeks till the doc considers letting me return to work.
Not especially looking forward to pride cause I still need a crutch to walk. And I feel kinda lonely but I really want to commit to being with myself

but it might be my fault that a train wreck crashed even harder, he lost his job, his housing, free food, not necessarily because of me, he had to act wrongly otherwise it would've just been complaining, but I pulled out our last card, pot in the house, hypocrite, not in that I have any or that I do it myself, but in my beliefs. Really I felt that ( Read more... )

3 years today. A final break up- yesterday. Prop 8 ( Read more... )

a wise owl once noticed... that owl didn't point out the mistakes or areas for growth, that owl kept his mouth shut, he waited and he watched, then he waited and watched some more. He felt a tension, wanted to spread his wings and soar high above letting those below know the lessons he had learned so long ago, but a cool calm came over him and he ( Read more... )