its all fun and games till someone doesnt feel like it

I'm trying really hard not to look into this...and im hoping the inevitable isnt happening...i thought we were good. i mean it was a nice chat...but things are still weird. i almost want this to be in my head. i dont like the idea growing apart...

so im home for christmas. its nice. love being with family. the girls left for school this morning. its just me and mom. thought i was gona hangout with cav today but im starting to think its not going to happen. kinda in a ranting mood. i mean i love being with the rents and munchkins but i much rather be in the srq. its not cold there. and i have ( Read more... )

so last night was my last night at faith. it was weird. i didnt think i would be saying that till my senior year. however pastor daves message just showed me even more that i was doing the right thing. after all i guess this is my chance to show what i can do. its not gona be easy i know that and it was hard when people said see u sunday when ( Read more... )

so ive been thinking i always seem to go on here and rant and rave about sumthing going on, wen the fact is thats my problem not every1 elses. soo i thought id juss come and here and do sumthing a lil more on the positive side. friday night was great evded hanging out with lisa had a great time, she spent the night and i took her home after she had ( Read more... )

so sitting in digital design. turned in a few more picks. juss chilling really. i dont wat to do anymore. it seems like im loosing some amazing friends and wats killing me is there is nothing i can do about it. i mean one of my best friends from 4grade has completely changed and i dont kno if its bc we r being forced to grow up or wat, but it hurts ( Read more... )

So today was Joff's Memorial service and i made it through with only a couple tears. After everything was done i came up to different ppl and gave them hugs to comfort then say its gona b okay. we're going to see him again. As i made my way thru the auditorium i came up to brooke and said mommy mommy. as i jokingly always do. we talked for a lil ( Read more... )

oo boy, gotta love coming back from camp. being pumped and ready to go and live for God. also gotta love the obstacles that rise up out of no where. God help me Father, i kno u wont leave me and wont give me anything i cant handle. help my parents understand, there is nothing worse then them not supporting me on this.

wow havent been on this thing for a reallllly long time but i mean thats ok i guess. yea never felt soo much like a little kid. i dont kno maybe its bc i hadnt noticed it before. it almost seems like im under house arrest, seriously. i mean it happened again this weekend. i was like mom mission conference tonite and she was like well im tired and ( Read more... )

Yeah Scaremare is amazing, im not gonna lie. im a little bored though sitting here in miss days class. im soooo tired but some amazing bonding in our room last nite. soo yea im gonna go find something to do.