its nice to have your mom and her boyfriend talk about you behind your back. i over heard a conversation that they where having and my mom dosent trust me for shit!! and i guess she has a reason to since im leaving and im lying to her about where im going. she deserves it. if i was a bad kid then i would understand but im not!! i hate her i want to ( Read more... )

i got home my mother sarted screaming at me, she gave me my hospital bills, told me to pay for my cell phone then told me to fuck myself as well as my sister. i hate my parents i want o move out of this hell hole as soon as i possibly can. but for now i just want to get away and weep my bills away.

"Though nothing can bring back the hour of splendor in the grass,
of glory in the flower,
we will grieve not,
rather find joy
in what remains behind."

BEAUTIFUL!!!....(sigh)

yesterday i was about to shoot myself because i felt so incredibly bad for making steph work on the stupid porject all day, i would have killed myself. my day was pretty cool cause i went to lunch with my grandma margaret it was sooooo good but then she statrted talking about god and i was alittle turned off considereing the fact that i dont ( Read more... )

yesterday was the last show i performed at school it was really funn. after we had to tear down the set which was a tme to relax and say our goodbyes on which i cryed, all in all i think the show went pretty well. it sucks that certain people had no interest in coming because it was really good or so it was said..my room is filled with beautiful ( Read more... )

yesterday was the opening of my show, it was good i felt good about it although i was upset because of a few things such as mr kayne my economics teacher but besides that it was a good show or so people said. i think i like that whole acting thing now wow! its like all that hard work payed off with people interviewing you at the end of the show. ( Read more... )

this week has been very stressful, the play is opening this week and i feel totally drained i need someone to just calm me down and talk to. the play can suck my cock the only thing im gonna miss is the people, those people have been so cool its been a fuckin roller coaster. school is the same old boring shit but hey 15 more days until im off in ( Read more... )

well this weekend was good. i very much enjoyed my saturday strange but but very fun and interesting, i had a great conversation with someone who will remain nameless because iam evil..buahh hahaha yeah ok whatever it was buahhahahaha. yes i dont like to be evil but i will be this time. anyway tomrrow is my first audienceed play and im so scared!! ( Read more... )

today was a pretty cool day, i went to rehearsal from 10:00 to seven. it seems long but it was fun. then i went to my 2nd home and i grubed.then thats about it. im sorry i have nothing exciting to write about, im alittle down but this will pass, as it has been said before, this feeling wll pass,and the pain will heal, im not bitter, i like where ( Read more... )

all of our conversations are artifical now, why wont you realize you fucked up how good we had it. this so frustrating to me. the more i say im gonna let it go the more i get pissed off and dont let it go.

lets take a bow, and admit this is fake.....