You don't let me fully in,and I can see from the expression on your face that you're hurting,but I don't want to press the subject on you.So,I'll wait,I'll wait until you're ready to let me in,even if it will take forever.I'll wait.


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I see.I notice.All the songs that you liked and sang to me,were ones you used to share with her too.I'm not amused.

I don't feel like getting up.I don't feel like dressing up.I don't feel like doing much of anything.I wanted to know what it was like to have feelings again,and now I wish I didn't.I feel like I"m sitting on the back shelf gathering dust.Eventually no one will even know that I exist.They're starting to show those stupid jewelry commercials again. ( Read more... )

Grrr.........my self-esteem totally blows.No matter what I do I still don't feel like I'm well,pretty. Maybe every now and then I do,but it's brief,and never really lasts that long. I know my friends are thinking that I'm idiot and what not for saying this,but I do feel this way.I still feel this way.And yes,it does partially have to do with being ( Read more... )

This is me.This is me posting once in a blue moon again.Deal with it. Me and Joejoe saw "American Gangster" last night,which was really except that the couple behind us kept having to get up and leave every fifteen minutes!!! Other than that it was fine. Joe's going to go visit "the boys" down in T-town either Friday or Monday. Hmmm.....I think I' ( Read more... )

Today I look for someone just for me.

Someone who will love me even if I can't fulfill their wishes.

Someone who has love for me alone.


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I'd love to be drop dead goregous.

It's amazing how you'll comment on her shit.I love you though. I know you said she's going through some rough times,but does she realize you're with me? This reminds me of when you asked me that Wednesday.I had a really rough day,so right now I'm a little irritated.

Ohhhh...how I love super top secret undercover work.Ultra fun,which I owe it all to Kiddo.I feel perfectly fine now.So pathetic thought.Just so pathetic.I might actually feel bad for that girl,but I don't.I know,I'm evil,but I can't help it.And why should I be nice all the time anyways?Sure, I have low self-esteem,and a ton of insecurities,but I ( Read more... )

This weekend was great,it was just what I needed to get me out of this haze I have been in lately.Friday night me,Kiddo, and Joe went cosmic bowling,which I totally sucked at,even after my drink.Saturday Kiddos friend went us to the mall.Joe bought me "Gothic & Lolita" from Hot Topic.I love it to pieces.We just sat there flipping throught it while ( Read more... )