He said he wished things were different.He said he wanted me to stay tonight,and the night after that,and the night after that.He said he wanted Chase to stay too.He said he wanted to re-marry me.

He said you were a lucky guy.

I admit it.I am jealous.Why?I'm not so sure.Call it paranoia.Call it insecurity.But why,why do I feel this way? It's just an inside joke.She doesn't even live remotely close to you.You love me and Chase.You say there's nothing there to be jealous about.But it's there,slowly eating at me.I told you if you want her,then you can have her.You know I'm ( Read more... )

Commenting how sexy one of your female friends is,or jokingly saying that you two are going to marry is uncool.Plain and simple.I'm still not quite over that.I know it's an inside joke and what not,but it's messing with my head.Yeah, it's irritating the insecure girl.I think I'll stop before I say something really hateful.

You won't talk to me.You won't talk to anyone.I'm hurt,and worried about you.Why are you facing whatever it is on your own?Why won't you let me help you? Or at least your friends.You're being selfish that way.Your silence tears into,leaving deep scars.I fear being destructive if this keeps up.This is maddening.I don't want to be alone.

Why do I have to be so insecure? I am,and you know it.The girls don't even stop talking to you, even when I give them our signal.It's sad,and depressing.Yeah, I like having you around alot.But, I don't have black hair,or blue eyes,nor do I have anything that someone might call a talent.I have no talent whatsoever that would set me apart from other ( Read more... )

Well, this weekend me,Joe,and Kiddo were to venture out to Lake Guntersville.I used to do this every summer, and will try my best to keep that tradition alive. Anyways,Joe had to first help some fishing tournament,which from what I was told Joe dislikes fishing.He just hates waiting.I think we were only there for fifteen minutes,to which Joe comes ( Read more... )

I've been working really hard on raising my self-confidence/esteem up. It's totally been shot down. I think I'll leave my resignation in the form of a suicide note. Anyways, I feel crushed. I just want to sleep for a while.Good night.

More of my friends are getting married/engaged. In a way I envy them, but I think I'll wait.

I was told today that I'm always trying to improve myself. Is that really such a bad thing???